Walking in a winter wonderland

Wednesday, October 30, 2002 IT'S SNOWING! Lots and lots of snow. And it's cold. The temp gage said that it was 20 degrees outside and that was at 10 this morning. I thing it got down to 15 degrees last night. Oh, you guys don't even know how cold it is. Last night me and a bunch of my friends went to a movie but the it was closed so we decided to walk back nad we all got into a huge snow ball fight. I've never been so cold. This one guy Matt pulled the whole Dumb abd Dumber thing and he made me face plant it in the snow. I still feel cold. And last night there was a ton of ice and the roads so we all just watched people slide all over he place all night. It was very amusing. This California guy I know crashed his car into another yesterday morning. Dumb Cali drivers. Anyway, I just wanted to make you all aware how winter like it is up here. Well have fun staying in your warm little states. It's a winter wonder land. Huggs and kisses.

Saturday, October 26, 2002 Hey everyone. Well things up here in Mormon country are good. My roommates are still wonderful and the boys haven't lost their appeal yet. Amazing is it not? So it snowed again on Thursday. Not a lot but still that goes to show how cold it is up here. This week has actually been a HELL week. I had my midterms and that included a sociology test, a religion test, my geology rock & mineral final and two papers due. I thought that I was going to die from all the work I did this week. I seemed like all I did was eat, drink and study. It was really out of control. But now this hell week is over and I get to start focusing on how I'm going to pull off my wards Halloween Party. I'm in charge of the decorations and the games. I've got my hands full. It's going to be outside of town in this cool looking barn. So that should be exciting. I'm starting to seriously miss home. It's not that I'm unhappy here. Far from it. I just really miss my family. I call almost every day just to talk to them. My little brother is becoming social and taking girls out on dates and I'm not even there. He still tells me everything so it's not that bad. I just miss seeing my family everyday and getting to tell my dad about all the boys that I've met. And to top is off I think I'm going to fail out of my Geology Lab class. It's just too hard for me. I thought I'd be smart and sign up for the advanced class but I'm getting my butt kicked. So that's going to bring down my GPA. Not like it's the end of the world. You know, I still haven't kissed anyone up at college yet. I think that I'm going to get so much sexual tension built up that I'm going to jump the first guy that tries to kiss me. Actually that's not true. Some guy did try and all I did was reject him so maybe I just have issues. Jez, what a negative entrie I've writen. I think I'm just jealous of all you that are close enought to just drive home when you feel like it. I'm 23 hours away. Only a few more weeks and I'll be home. I can make it. Keep smiling guys.

Sunday, October 20, 2002 Hey everyone! did you miss me. Well I missed you too. Anyway, i had a super busy weekend. I'm so glad its over. Preference was good (my date wouldn't cuddle with me) but aside from that it was good. The music sucked- which is typical- but what are you going to do? Then on Saturday I took Bret out on a date with Sarah and Jason and we had tin foil dinners and s'mores. After that we brought a couch out to the park and watched a scary movie on a Laptop. That was fun but also really scary. Hey I got a calling in church today. I'm in charge of planning fun activities for my ward. I'm really excited for it. Well I'd love to write more but it's sunday and I have to go to another meeting. Love you all!

Monday, October 14, 2002 Wow, I am so sore. Shoot, I haven't blogged for a really long time and my fingers hurt from typing so many letters already. I'll try to do my best with this one. Well, my drama with Ryan is never ending. I tried to tell him before the weekend that I had real problems with relationship and they're just not for me right now. Then the day I left on my trip he writes me this really sweet letter saying how much he cares about me. That of course freaks me out and I go on my trip for the weekend totally preoccupied with this problem. Oh yeah, I went to Boise (a town about 5 hours from here) to go riding horses with my roommate in her home town. So that was really fun. Seeing her with all her friends made me really homesick for my friends back home and especially my family. I miss them a lot. Anyway, so I went riding for like 6 hours and I'm incredibly sore. The best part is that I'm going to do it again on Friday with my other friend named Collin. He's pretty cool but he has a lot of sexual tension built up so he makes me nervous sometimes. I have a lot going on this week. On Wednesday I'm going to dinner with one of my FHE (family home evening) guys (derek) and then on Friday is the girls-ask guy-dance. I actually still have to ask my guy. I'm going to put my Scooter in his living room with a sign that says "Scoot on over to preference with me and we'll have the ride of a life time" or something like that. Kyan (that's his name) is really cute too so I'm excited. Then on Saturday I asked this guy named Bret out on a date. Actually, I only had met him for about one minute before I asked him out. I think I scared him a little. Oh well. So I'm not sure when my studies come into that. Well, this is getting a bit lengthy so I'll end it now. Keep it real guys.

Monday, October 7, 2002 Hey guys. It's good to be back home in Rexburg. Wow, I never thought I'd say that. But actually it really does feel good to be back around my new friends again. There's something about being with my cute, skinny, loud sister all weekend that get's a little old. It was a great trip down to Utah. But the sucky part about it was that I got sick on the 5 hour drive down. I get something called Vertigo (I think that's how you spell it) Anyway, it's where your mind and eyes are telling you that you are spinning around and your body remains still the whole time. So I pretty much kept my eyes closed for 5 hours and I didn't even throw up till 6 hours of driving (the last of which was up a winding road). So this weekend was fun but was full of a lot of misery. I did however find some very cute Doc Martians in a Thrift store for only eight bucks. Good times. Rachel, I came to visit you with Kelly and you weren't there. Dumb mono girl. Anyway, It's good to be back and I can't wait for this weekend. I'm going horseback riding with my roommate over in her home town. I'm really excited. Well it's late and I have lots of catching up to do tomorrow. I love you all.

Tuesday, October 1, 2002 Excuse me Martin, I dont remember your name being on the CD cover. Although I do have to reconize that it was you who inspired me to get it. And yes, it is a great CD. I especially like playing it for all the girls up here who think that it is devil music. Anyway, I thought I'd just Blogg on right now and let everyone know that it is fricken snowing up here. I just checked the Los Angeles forcast and is is a cool 67 degrees and a light wind is expected. Screw you all! Anyway, have a great day and remember to keep the love alive (especially when it's this cold).

Monday, September 30, 2002 Hey guys. I'm absoultly shocked and amazed! Missy blogged! I wouldn't have thought it possible. Anyway, missy, if your reading this email me at annieq84@yahoo and give me your address. I don't have it and no one I know has it. I got back from Yellowstone yesterday (Sat, it's actually one in the morning). So that trip was OK. It was long and there seemed to be way too much Geology being discussed so I've had it up to here (pionting past my head) with rock and formations. I did meet this guy named Seth and he's from Chicago. He's cool but the night after we got back he came over to my place (I had told him where I lived) and Ryan was there and Ryan and I still kind of have a thing going on so I had the boy that I went to homecoming with and the new guy I had cuddled with and slept on (don't get any ideas, I was tired on the bus). Needless to say I was in an awkward situation I ended up cuddling with Seth during the movie and I think I hurt Ryans feelings. Really I just don't want to be in a relationship up here. No one believes that the longest relationship I've had has been two weeks. They think that's real funny. But the weird thing is that I don't think that I like Seth much either. I'm just was to imature for this campus. Anyway, Martin, it's good to know that you had a good Sunday. You should have more of those. I have one every day. But now homework and tests are really starting to add up and I need to remember that I'm here for an education. Or at least till I get married. Only Joking! I haven't been that brain washed. Oh, my roommate crashed the scooter today and she got real cut up but she'll be alright and she only scrached it where Danny (Calebs brother) smashed it. Well, it's late and my sleep is precios to me so I bid you ado.

Tuesday, September 24, 2002 Wow, once again it takes me way to long to update. Sorry about that. So college is still way to much fun. Really I think it should be illegal. Anyway, Saturday night was homecoming and the guy Ryan asked me in a really cute way. He taped a bag across my door and taped the side and the bottom and filled it with popcorn. When my roommate opened it in the morning a bunch of popcorn came pouring in and he had left a note sayijng that it was "corny" but he wanted to ask me to homecoming. Well that was precious and I answered back yes with the fish in the sea thing (he named his fish Moses) and we went on Sat. He was a great date but while we were dancing he told me that he liked me and said that he wanted to go on more dates. Talk about straight foreward. So then at the doorstep (you all know that I'm usually in control of the door step thing; hey I can be straight foreward too) well he said that he liked me but he was just going to give me a kiss on the check. That was sweet but I'm just going to be firends with him. For heaven sake, he's 21 and I'm just a small 18 yr old freshman. Actually he's super cool and I hang out at that appartment every day so we'll be just fine. Oh, I saw whitney T. at the dance up here so we screamed and jumped and hugged (the usual girl stuff) so it was really good to see her. Her Ben boy was cute so I approve. Well this weekend I get to go to Yellowstone with my geology group. I'm super excited but I wish the cute boy wouln't have dropped out of my class. Anyway, hey all you chamber singers- how's the CD. Oh I want to hear it so bad. I miss it so much. All I sing up here are church hymns (not that that's bad) but I need some "With a lilly". Oh jeeze, it's late and I have to get up at 6:30. Lots of love.

Saturday, September 14, 2002 Hi Guys! It's 2:30 in the morning and I almost went to sleep but then I didn't. Some of my roommates are out for the weekend so I get us of the internet whenever I want to. Sorry it has taken me a week to bolg. It doesn't seem that long. It's weird that I'm blogging but I think only Martin reads these any more. So with that I would like to say hi to you martin and I would also like to express my confusion to why you are so blue. It sounds like your having a great time so far but maybe you just need to feel needed. It's one of the basic human requirments and perhaps you just need to go get active in what your college offers you. that's my advice. It works pretty well for me and I'm extreamly happy. So last night I went on a date with this guy named Alex but I don't know how my feelings are towards him. Everyone says he digs me but unfortunantly I'm shallow and I need more of a chase than that. Awful huh? Then tonight I organized this double date with a guy named Ryan. We went to the thrift store and we bought the ugliest clothes we could find. I had on a hidious blue formal and my date had on a bright purple womens workout suit. I can't believe I got him to wear that. So then we went bowling with those clothes on and it was hilarious. People were giving us really weird looks. They just wish they were having as much fun as we were. So tomorrow night I'm going to a huge drive in where the college rents it out and has a dance party/ movie night thing. I'm really excited for that too. Anyway, it's time for bed. I don't know how to acess everyone elses bloggs so Jen, Jess, Kelly and Mitchel, I want to know what yours are. My Email address is annieq84@yahoo.com. Write to me so I can write you back. So good night and have fun you crazy animals.

Monday, September 9, 2002 Hey Guys. It feels really weird doing something so La Canada in a place that is so far from it. Bogging at college is a new experience for me. So life up here in the Burg is great. It's just the kind of enviornment that I thrive in. We're just a bunch of cheezy mormons in the middle of nowhere coming up with the randomest things to do. Saturday was great. The night before we had had a huge thunderstorm and we all went out and played in the rain. From an airial view it might have looked like a bunch of ants flooding from their rooms to get drowned in the downpour. It really was a sight to see. So I woke up on Sat realizing that a perfectly good football field was soaked with water. I get a few dozen boys together and about 5 girls and we all play tackle football till 2. There is this big guy named Phil and he weighs about 300 pounds. He a great guy but that didn't stop him from throwing me a couple times. I'm a little sore. Right after that I join a group that was going bridge jumping. That was really great too but the water was snow runoff and the bridge was about 25 feet high. It was pretty scary. Later on that night we watched the PG version of The Patriot. One of the girls almost threw up from the gore and that was the edited version. I want to show her Black Hawk Down. That's a good movie. Last night we had a dinner with 16 people all cramed into our appartment. We had spagetti and brownies and afterwards played the M&M game. Lots of fun. Well I hope you're all well and I think you should all blog more (except Martin- good job for writting). Anyway I have to go to class. So long.

Wednesday, September 4, 2002 Hello bloggers! I am writing from college and I feel so happy right now. I thought being surrounded by a bunch a mormons would be weird but I love it. Everyone is just a cheezy as I am (and yes that is possible). Tharen fixed my scooter yesterday so I'm now everyone's best friend. They assure me that they are not using me for my scoot but I don't know. Well this whole college is filled with hot guys. I am in heaven. So listen to this fun. (Rachel and kelly, you've already seen this paragraph) I have the best ward ever. My app complex is right next to a boys app called the bunkhouse and the best boys live there. On Monday none of us had FHE groups yet so we got our whole ward to go up to the hot spring pools that are heated by a hot spring. We played water basket ball and the girls lost 45 to zero. And that's with each shot counting one point. Needless to say us girls were a little overwhelmed. I think the boys just wanted to grab some girls in swim suits. So we came back from that a 10 and then we went to a dance. That wasn't much fun so at 12 we formed a group to go to the sand dunes.The stars were so beautiful. I had the privilage of being the human pillow and every time I laughed the cute guy on my stomach bounced up and down. That only made it worse so I really got an ab's workout. We didn't get home till 2 and lucky for us we wern't caught. Oh jez, Kris has the hottest friend. His name is Rob and he's from california and best yet is that they haven't meet any girls so the all just want to hang out with me. Not to shabby. I just have to make sure that I don't give off the "Kris is my boyfriend" vibe. Anyway, I hope everyone is having as good oh a time a college as I am. I couldn't be happier. Good times. Bye ya'll.

Wednesday, August 28, 2002 Oh my gosh I hate computers. Every time it starts working agian something has to go wrong. Last week the hard drive crashed in my computer hence the lack of blogging. The most frustrating part is that I can't get on to get college information or to hear from people up a college. Hey everyone reading this, write you're email address in your next blog so I can write you. I missed the whole address swap day. Damn the Y. Anyway, I've been at the beach the past week and I had a wonderful time. I don't know how many people can actually say that they really enjoy their family. Well I do. They are the best bunch of people a girl could ask for. I'm going to be really sad to leave them. Oh sad story time for all those animal lover out there. At the beach on our last night a sea lion washed up on shore and you could tell it was real sick. The life guard wouldn't do anything except put cones around it and it just lay there all day long breating and not moving. Well night came and the coast guards took the cones away and just left it there. Everyone was trying to hit it any throw things at it so I sat by it for a bit with sisters cell phone trying to get a hold of an animal shelter. The best I could get was the Friends of the Sea Lions and it was just a message machine. So I left a message and then I had to go back to the appartment. I'm sure that cute little sea lion died and it broke my heart not being able to do anything about it. So that was sad but watching Kris come down in the morning and watching him try to surf almost made up for it. Wow that guy has not balance. Missy, you and him should skim together. I went down to the beach with kelly and that was a blast. She's a great girl. I forgot how much I needed her and my other girls to rely on. Strange how that is. Anyway, it's late and I need lots of sleep for my hair cut tomorrow. Night!

Thursday, August 15, 2002 Hey guys. I'm sitting here hot and miserable with a fever. If any of you know me you know that I never get sick (M&M's don't count missy) and of all the days to be sick I choose today. Actually I was sick yesterday. It was field trip day at work and I was taking kids to Disney Land (not the happiest place on earth) and by the time I got back to the site I was dizzy and I had a fever. It's amazing that all the children were sent home alive cause I almost killed several of them. So pretty much I had to miss work today and it was the Chucky Cheese day. The day where the kids stay inside all day and the councilors get to sit back and relax. I was really looking forward to it. So my day has been spent watching movies and finding out that Rachel leaves tomorrow morning. I can't believe she's going. I really don't know what I'm going to do without her and Kelly. I miss her already and she's going to drop by my house tonight. So tomorrow is my last day of work and I can honestly say that I'm going to miss the kids. Camp has been great for me and I think I might even do it next year. I hope my strut throat goes away tomorrow. My parents are out of town this weekend. Anyway, I'm going to watch another movie. Bye.

Tuesday, August 13, 2002 Hey everyone. So this week is going pretty well so far. Chris C is working this week at camp with me and I enjoy being around him so that's good times. I actually feel that I haven't really connected with too many people at camp (don’t get me wrong they're great people) but most time's I'd rather hang out with the kids than the councilors. But with Chris there I'm more me so that's good. Well, I wrote some more to my roommates and I've decided to room with the Texan Veronica. She seems different and she's only been a member for a year. I like different people. And she gets up really early in the morning so she'll be inspiration for me to get up. Carina just called me for a last get together happening on Thursday but I work so I can't go. Oh well. I'll stay in contact with the people I want to whether I have they're info or not. So the YMCA dinner thing was tonight and I had a really good time. I sat next to Martin, Chris and Daniel so that was good fun. I hope you choke on your bouncy ball Martin. You're a horrible person. Well that's been my few couple of days and I go to Disney Land tomorrow. Wish me luck!

Sunday, August 11, 2002 Oh wonderful world! How I have missed you so much! We just got our DSL connected today and I finally get to go online. So a quick apologies for the lack of writing these past few weeks. We moved into the new house and we still have no TV. I'm surviving on old recorded Star Trek episodes. It's not much of a biggie that I haven't been writing because all I would talk about is camp. I am tired a lot but it's a good tired. The kids love me and I'm really getting along with the different councilors. Next week is my last and I'll be sad to see it end. Pretty much I wont know what to do with my free time. Even my Saturdays never seem to end. Also camp keeps me in good shape and stops me from eating too much so hopefully I won't blow that too much when it's done. So a funny/not so funny camp story. We have these three Asian kids at camp that don't speak English. They're cousin speaks both languages so she a translator. So we're at the Science Center and the day is finally ending. It was a long day even with the help of my CIT. Well I'm walking to the bus and I notice that the Asian boy is blocking the way of one of the girls and he's screaming at her in Korean. So I go to pull them apart and the kid throws a punch. All the councilors grab the kid and the whole time he's crying and cussing in Korean. Finally the director has to pick him up and drag him away from the girl who doesn't know why he's so mad. It turns out she touched his plane and he lost it. All the way home on the bus he's yelling and crying and when we get back to the site his mom has to come get him. You wonder how some of these kids are going to act when they grow up. Out of control. So Martin, I didn’t know you were at the Sci Cen too. You should have yelled or something. Anyway, I'll be writing from now on so no worries. Got to go now. I'll write some more tomorrow.

Sunday, July 21, 2002 Hey everybody! Guess what? I have a social life again. Well sort of. I still have play practices every night till the play is over but I took this week off work and I'm really looking forward to time with myself and people older than 9. So life is good. My last paycheck from the Y was for 340 dollars from just one week of work. That was the week where I got up at 6 and went to work all day long. I love overtime. So my family is moving on Thursday and just today I realized that I was the only one in my family who hadn't seen the new house yet. We went over this afternoon and it's a piece of crap. I'm so glad that they didn't do this till I went to college. It will be sad coming home for Thanksgiving and Christmas and coming back to a different house. An ugly one at that. So one of my future roommates wrote me back and she seems really sweet. We're e-mailing now and she'll either be cool or horribly sheltered. The only thing I'm worried about is that she said she only watches G and PG rated movies. That could be a problem cause I thought college could be a little more lax on that whole movie restriction. Who can blame the girl though, she has lived in Idaho in the same house all her life and she probably hasn't left her home state very often. Martin you would have a field day with her. Funny. Anyway, I'm so sad that I missed the Missy, Martin and Greg beach day. It sounded like lots of fun. Grunion Hunting on Friday is going to be the best. I can see Wannier really getting into it. So Martin, the Mandy thing what!?! Where did she get an idea like that? Hooray for assumption La Canada. Whatever. So I'm expecting all of you to come to my play either on Friday night or for the Saturday matinee. I promise I'll try to act and my dress is kind of low cut if that's inspiration. What a scandal. Anyway, this is lengthy and I'm gonna go work out at the Y tomorrow so I think I'll go to bed. Night.

Thursday, July 18, 2002 Hello my friends. I know I haven't blogged forever and for that I apologize. Well Martin, the wedding sounds like it was a usual Mormon good time. It must have seemed a little hogi to someone like you. Way to stick through it! I feel as if I am writing not as myself but as the exhausted camp councilor/ actor who is wondering where her life went. Good news however, I took work off next week so I could help move and so I could concentrate on the play (I perform Friday night and Sat matinee and I expect you all to attend). Well this week I'm in La Canada working with the 5th graders. They take less of and effort but they're kind of smart alliky. La Canada has more fun of councilors too. Claire's with me this week and we get along really well so that’s great. Nothings worse than an 8 hour job where you feel out of place. I must say that Rachel Frandsen is the sweetest thing in the world. I was hurrying off to play practice tonight and on the stairs were a pack of M&M's, flowers and a lovely note telling me to stick it out and keep working hard. Rachel, you might not ever understand what that meant to me and for that I thank you. I must go to bed now so have a great weekend. I, once again, probably won't see a lot of you this weekend. Love you all!

Friday, July 12, 2002 Strange how that last entry just kind of cut out. I'm sure that what I was saying wasn't very important. Well I completed my first week of camp and I must say that I had a blast. I've lost my voice (not good for the play) and I managed not to drink the Jung. The Jung is an assortment of different eatable items that are mixed together and drunk by any counselor found guilty of breaking a rule. I said crap at least three times at camp and each time I thought a kid would turn me in but thankfully they must have forgotten. We hold a court on Friday to tri the guilt or innocence of a person. David form Chamber Singers last year (Soraya's Drama) is in camp with me and when his group went to the bowling ally he re-set the name thing and yelled out a bad word. Everyone knew he was guilty this morning but somehow he got off it and the kids found him not guilty. It was one of the funniest things ever. So I'm really sore and play practice went till 11:30 tonight. I have it again tomorrow morning at 9 so I think I'll go to bed now. Maybe tomorrow I'll actually do something other than sit around and watch other people perform. Good Night and I love you all!

Wednesday, July 10, 2002 I just realized that the only thing I ever really write about anymore is camp and the play. Perhaps if I plotted out my day hours that would give a reason. Wake up at Six so I can be to camp by 7. I'm at camp from 7 AM to 6 PM. I have an hour rest before I got to practice which starts at 7 and goes till 10. I rush home and try to get sleep so I won't die at camp the next day. Hooray for my summer. I manage in the middle to blow off a better part of my school firends (some purposly and some not) but my social life is drama without any auditions. So here's the positive; I survived my first real field trip with day camp. It was far from easy but luckly most of the

Tuesday, July 9, 2002 Ok, sorry about the previous entry. If you want me to explain it you can call me and ask me. Otherwise you will all have to live in suspense. Well on to better things, CAMP IS AWSOME! I love the age group I got. They all think I am a God. Two of the girls call me mommy and sit on my lap and one of them is always trying to give me kisses (talk about a sexual harassment case). I have 11 kids all in first grade and they actually respect me. Last year at Zoo Camp I had a tough time getting the kids to listen but with these kids they can't wait to talk to me. Every morning I split the kids into groups and do a Harry Potter Quiz. I think up questions and the winning team gets to make wands on the last day. Of course it will be a tie but oh well. Bad morning this morning. Evileen told me that I had to open mornings and be at the site by 6:45. So I show up and two other people are there from my camp and they don't think I'm suppose to be there. So I leave and buy a sandwich and watch Unbreakable at my house for two hours till I can head to work again. It turns out that I was suppose to open but I won't get the hours for it and I have to do the 7 thing for the rest of the week. It makes me tired just thinking about it. Tomorrow is Hurricane Harbor and I don't know what to expect. Chaos probably. But smilily faces and happy times anyway. Ok, work the play and my personal life has completely exhausted me. I need to go to bed now. Peace.

Monday, July 8, 2002 FUCK HIM

Sunday, July 7, 2002 Yay, I know where I'm working tomorrow! There was a little drama about starting work and not knowing where it was. It turns out that my group is swimming tomorrow. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not. My "thrown together the night before the lesson" went well today. I wasn't even nervous to speak in front of 40 girls. They're pretty harmless. Oh happy news! Rachel got back early from Canada. I was so happy to see her. Lately I've felt like all my close buddies have left me. Kelly's in Utah and Rachel was away. If it wasn't for Whitney T. I would probably slipped into depression. I love my girls. I hope Whitney doesn’t get too molested in Europe. Well I'm going to watch the end of Gladiators. I'll write tomorrow and tell ya'll about my first day of camp. Hugs and Kisses.

Thursday, July 4, 2002 Hey guys. Well summer is finally upon me. It's to the point where I don't know what day it is. They all just kind of mush together. Strange how that is. Last night I had a really good talk with Caleb on the phone. I'm a little tired today but it was worth it. There was some drama today registration for college classes. It's so stressful to sign up for something and not know if I've made the right decision or not. I just have to have a little faith and throw my luck to the wind. I saw two very strange movies today. The first was Men in Black II and it was OK. Sequels are never as good as the original. I saw the previews for Lord of the Rings: Two Towers and the next Star Trek movie. Yay for excitement! The second movie I saw today was Vanilla Sky and that just screwed with my mind. It was a Matrix kind of a movie. I have no definant plans for tomorrow or the next day or the one after that. I should probably enjoy it while I can. Ok, I'm tired now. Martin, it was good times tonight. Try not to kill Andrews dog. Three words. Mouth to Mouth. Sick. Never mind. Goodnight.

Sunday, June 30, 2002 Martin! Don't have such a pity fest! I left you a message on you AOL something so I did try to get a hold of you. You just didn't want to call me up so don't give me that. Actually my weekend was really busy so I wouldn't have been able to hang out if I wanted to. Friday I went to play practice and hung out with Caleb, Ryan, Andrew H and Andrew T. Those boys make me really nervous so that was a weird night. Then Saturday was my dads huge 51st B-day party and between that and play practice my whole Saturday was shot. I can't hang out on Sundays so there's my weekend. What a shame. Actually I went to Andrew Tasjins Fathers baptism tonight. Andrew baptized him and Matt confirmed him It was really sweet. I'm going over to Blake's in a few min so that should be fun. I hope he doesn't talk about girls the whole time. So that's me right now. I'll write some more tomorrow.

Thursday, June 27, 2002 Hey dude's! Well summer has now hit full blast for me. Now come the days of carefree days and endless nights. The beach has seen more of me than it ever thought possible and I'm not as dangerously white as I was before. Today was really a lot of fun though. Me, Missy, Caleb, Carina and Julie all went to Malibu today to surf and we had a blast riding the 6-inch waves. So yeah the surf was none existent but that was all right. So once again my body is incredibly burned (I did put sunscreen on this time- just not on my legs- Ouch). Hey guess what? I went skin boarding today. That's with the thin wooden board that you slide across the wet sand on. I thought I would be horrible at it (Missy ate it a lot before I tried it) but to my surprise I was really good at it. I did have a couple great falls and I'll just say that sitting down tomorrow might be a problem. Oh and Missy, about your question. Yes I have one there. Anyway, tonight after play practice we went Grunion Hunting. That's with the little fish on the beach that you catch at midnight. So that was fun except Steph Barnes was there and I don't care for her much (just cause Ryan likes her). So that was my night. My shoulders really hurt from paddling today so I'm going to bed. Smooch!

Monday, June 24, 2002 Ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!! I love the feeling of coming back from a trip (especially an outdoors one) and being able to take a long hot shower. Yum! Nothing better. Well, I’ll do grad night real quick. There was a lot of waiting and not so much riding but that was expected. Halfway through the night I got separated from Missy, Rachel and Kelly so that was really sad. I tried their cell phones to no avail. Sigh. Actually, I was dragged onto Indiana Jones and we waited in line for 40 min. I was falling asleep and I kind of wanted to go dancing. The night on the whole was lots of fun and I got to hang out with Whitney T. for a bit. I also enjoyed talking to Martin on the way back to the buses. Many of you might be wondering why I haven’t blogged for a bit. I’ve been in Mammoth with my church and I had a blast. The only downside was that I went straight from Grad night to the Swensons car for the drive up there. I just slept the whole time so that was great. Anyway, so Mammoth was so much fun. All of us just hung out together and we were even able to include Caroline in everything we did. I think it made a huge difference in her attitude. By far the best part about the trip was that Whitney T. hung out with us the WHOLE time. I could tell that Heidi and Suzie were jealous but she chose to be with us. Hooray for the senior girls being bestys! I was really sad that Kelly wasn’t there. It made a huge difference and I miss her so much already. Kelly, if you’re reading this don’t forget to blog so I can know what’s up in your life. Well that does it for me. Wish me luck learning my lines. They’re due on Friday and I don’t know them so well. Talk to you later. Love & Kisses.

Wednesday, June 19, 2002 Hello my lovely people. I now blog to you out of sheer habit. Nothing much has happened except my whole body is burned. I should have used sun block. It really was worth it though because the past three times at the beach I've not been wearing the right suit to play in and this time I happened to wear my Speedo. Rachel, Carina and I were in the water for two hours. The water was surprisingly warm and the surf wasn't bad either. I was having so much fun that I forgot to put sunscreen on. I'll be red for graduation. Not that it matters because I'm sitting next to none of my friends. Alfred Jagals and I just complained together the whole time. I think they should put everyone next to their friends. It would mean a lot more to me that way. Anyway, tonight should be interesting. I have mixed feelings about Graduation. I've looked forward to this moment all my life and it's a little unbelievable that it's happening now. I'm not sure that I'm ready to have this part of my life be over with. Actually when it really happens I'll probably not even think about it and most likely I'll be board. Oh Andrew, I loved your entry about the last day of Chamber singers. That described my feelings in so many different ways. Thanks for writing it. So I'll see you all later and a note to my friends- I don’t have Y Camp next week so lets hang out. (Maybe we can go over to Martins house when he's not home). Stay out of the sun everyone.

Monday, June 17, 2002 Well, another little part of me has died today. It feels as if I had a beautiful blossoming flower in my bosom and all year I have watered it any loves it but like all things it must die. That flower inside of me was Chamber Singers. I feel I can only explain it to people in the choir and even then I feel as if I cannot put it into words. For me the best way to put it is simply by saying that something had died inside of me. Don't get me wrong though. It's not like I'm depressed or anything. This death was an expected one and the flower grew more lovely and healthy than I ever thought possible. But with every death comes new life. Maybe the new flower won't be as beautiful or special as the choir one but I know that there are bigger and better things up ahead for me. Even if I'm not ready to go. I envy the people who are able to get emotional. Somehow I perceive them as caring more than me when in actuality we feel the same but I just can't express it. How wonderful that a person can be open enough to be venerable to the people around them. Crying would probably help me release some separation anxiety that is building up in me. It's a really frustrating feeling to be in the middle of something so exciting as graduating and at the same time I feel like I'm loosing some wonderful, childlike aspect of my life. I'm growing up. That's the hard truth of the matter. And I am trapping my feelings inside of me.

Sunday, June 16, 2002 Wow guys, a lot has happened this weekend. It seems longer than usual. Probably because one of those nights never ended. Ok from the beginning. Friday I went to the beach after forth and as usual we had a complete blast. But why would anyone want to lick my cat. HaHaHaHAHA. Oh jen, that was for you. Oh, too funny. So later that night was the chamber sleepover and at first I was on complete "house on the market and parents asleep downstairs mode" but that passes and I finally relaxed. Till Caleb and Andrew showed up. Oh well. Anyway, buggy boarding was a complete blast. We got lucky with that and the Porch Talk was one of my favorites of the night. Well than Hans showed up. You can't win them all. Then I moved onto the Trampoline where every time I started cuddling with Tristan, Greg would steal the blanket or start a fight with him till finally he left. Greg, sometimes! He was on full annoying mode that night but I think I handed it pretty well. So from the Tramp (having Greg fall asleep on me doesn't do it for me) Rachel and I went down to my sister’s twin beds (We gave Andrew my bed cause we knew he would complain about how hard my sisters were). We stayed up talking till three. The usual kissing and boys was discussed in full and I once again explained the passion and joy of a good kiss to Rachel. We talked about other stuff and then Caleb came in with us. We talked awhile and he and Rachel did this thing where he tried to seduce me in French with Rachel translating. They would ask me what he said and I would say, "Your eyes are like stars" when it was really "you smell like cheese". Oh that was fun. Finally Caleb fell asleep in my bed with me (no small feat due to the fact that they are single beds and barley hold one person). I thought Rachel would be mad and jealous of me so I left Caleb and went to her bed. I'm really glad I did cause I think it might have changed our relationship if I hadn’t. Well we couldn't sleep and it was getting light so we walked around upstairs and gave out blankets to the poor guys on the ground. Sorry Martin. At least you got a kiss out of it. Ha, you were awake. That's great! So after that Rachel and I went up to my roof to watch the sun and Greg rise from the Trampoline. That was really funny. After a sleepless night I went to five hours of camp training and I realized that all those people are so much fun. Especially this guy named Chris. He's in my group and I can tell that were going to have good times together. Finally Saturday night I went to Kelly's farewell that was sponsored by the good old guys in our group. It was Mark, Ja and Jordan. Oh I can't describe the pure, unadulterated fun that we had. Ja tried to throw Whitney’s flip flop out the window on the freeway and we did three unsuccessful chines fire drills. Then we went to Marks and the boys had gotten Kelly a cake that says good-bye on it. We all stood around with sparkling cider and said our last words. Kelly is leaving on Thursday so of course she was suppose to be the one to cut the cake but when it came time she dissolved into tears and refused to cut it. Finally Jordan had to do it and Kelly almost couldn't even eat the cake. So sad. Today I spent the whole day making Yearbook signatures and my wrist hurts. I got smart this year and instead of carrying the huge book around I write it on a piece of paper and paste it in. Really more simple. I also wrote Rachel a wonderful story about a princess that I must say is quite good. That took a really long time. The story was super long. And that was my day. I hope you're still with me reading this. I know it was long but thank you for completing it. Hey Andrew I have something for you! I love you all! Night

Monday, June 10, 2002 Hey there! I just got back from LAX where Kelly and I hunted down a guy she knew who was on his way to Australia for his mission. It was a complete miracle that we found him. The people at LAX will no longer let you go up to the boarding area so we were waiting outside the airport not expecting to see him (why should he leave the airport). They had paged him but we were told that they were already boarding so I didn’t have much hope. When we got to the security checkpoint Kelly grabbed me and said “that looks like mark” and sure enough it was her missionary and his companion. Silly Kelly, she’s such a girl. Well that was an adventure and I think Kelly really appreciated it. So that was today and nothing really special happened. I got a yearbook and I expect you all to write heart filled messages to me in it. Ummm….. That’s about it. Way to go Missy for Blogging. I didn’t think she would ever to that again. Now I have to see the “Real” thing flashing up for MONTHS when I try to go to the other blog pages. Oh well. Night.

Monday, June 10, 2002 I think the closure is starting to kick in now that I have had my third dream in a row about being up at college. Strangely enough all the people in my dream (except the hot guys) won't be going up to college with me. If you aren’t Mormon you won't understand this whole college thing. Most high school kids go to a college where they don't know anyone and they're fine with that. But for LDS kids we go to college with our best friends and usually a sister or two. Kris is the only one going up to BYU-I with me. True my sister will already be up there but I don't think we'll see each other much, so college will be an adventure. I just have such conflicting emotions of not wanting a part of my life to end but at the same time I want the new part (and supposedly the best part) of my life to begin. So the Chamber Singers final concert was last night. I really couldn’t have cared if there was no one in the audience. I still would have had a blast. The concert had more of an upbeat feeling to it (how could it not after Greg) and I always prefer happy over the crying thing cause honestly I don’t cry. I’m not sure what it is but I won’t get lonely for the good old times till I’m sitting alone in my bed one night and it will hit me how much it meant to me. Music has never really moved me to tears either. I really have to think of the implications of something before it touches me. Oh well. The thing afterwards at Erin’s house a ton of fun. I was a little surprised when Jen and Jess and all those girls showed up. I still don’t really know how they got there, but it was great hanging out and talking with all my favorite choir people. A few years ago when I thought about who I’m going to miss the most when I go up to college I thought it would be all of my best friends but now I realize that I will see my best friends again but I probably wont see Andrew, Martin, Tristan, Mike, Greg and everyone else from choir. Maybe next year we’ll all meet up at some random choir thing and we can reminisce about all the good jokes we made about Soraya. HaHaHa! Ok that does it for me today. I think I’ll go to school now. Bye

Saturday, June 8, 2002 I have this restless feeling right now and I'm not sure why. I feel as if I want to go somewhere but I'm not sure where that somewhere is. Confusion. Well the senior assembly was weird. I was screaming for my flaggets, singing footprints in the snow and holding hands for the last time during the Alma Mater. I don't think that I'm ready to leave LC yet. Perhaps I just haven't experienced the closure that one gets from graduation. So my little surprise for my Mormon girls seems to be taking up all my time. I went over to Jessica's house last night and on the way I came upon some guy in the middle of the street. He was blocking traffic by running and turning people away and I thought he was just probably crazy. But then I looked around him and a bunch of people were huddled around some guy on the ground rolling around in misery. Either there was a hit and run or a shooting. It must have just happened cause no cops were there yet and I kind of got this shock into reality. Life isn't a guarente but what you do with the time you have is. So I don't think I'll sweat the small stuff. Scary stuff. Well Jessica's house was fun (once again everyone gets to relax with alcohol while I have to just sit there) but the Lakers won there game so Yay! I wrote a song the other day but I don’t think I'm ready to blog the lyrics yet. They’re to real to me. Well that's about all I have to say. Wish us chamber singer luck on our concert tomorrow. Hey chambers- Trisha didn't make it back into CS for next year. Hummmm.... But Melody did so Hooray! Bye everyone

Thursday, June 6, 2002 Hey I’ve got a busy day today. Three rehearsals! Chamber, senior song and Oklahoma (all of which are going fine). We got yearbooks today, not me cause I don’t trust myself with a peice of paper for ten months, but I’ll get one eventually. The yearbook looks pretty good. I really like the cover but the Mormon comment probably will upset some people. Oh well. So I was just at the Y turning in my license for day camp and I went in to talk to Sean (the director) and I talked to him about Fox and how disappointed I was that I forgot to sign up and he scheduled me in for tomorrow and then he gave me an application. So Yay! I might get to do Fox this summer. Actually I don’t really know what Camp Fox is or when it is. Perhaps I should look into it. So lots of singing today. That should be fun. Operator is going to be so much fun! The cheesier the better. G2G pick up the kids. Bye

Monday, June 3, 2002 Oh Eric! Could you possibly be anymore desirable? I don't think so, unless of course.... well I won't go there. So Eric came today and usually it's just a great experience due to the fact that he is incredibly handsome. This time our class is working on a piece called A Boy and a Girl. This song is amazing because of the lyrics but when Eric makes the music to go along with it, Magic. Even his good looks coupled with the music would have been more than satisfying but we were in for a real treat. He actually improved the song just for us and made it have even more depth. We would sing a part for him and if he didn't like something he would just tell us what to change. Automatically the song would improve and Andrew and I both realized that our choir will be the first to sing it in its new form. So Cool! I even got a picture with him and I didn't even care if that was kind of pathetic of me. I will pull out that picture 20 years from now when my kids are singing his music and I'll show them the picture. Such a happy day. Oh and I got a call from Brent today. It was pretty random. I thought that after that period when I didn't call him back that we would not have anymore of our long talks. But he called and I found out that he's working at day camp this summer too! Such a pleasant surprise! So now it's me, Claire, Jimmy and maybe Martin (are you doing it again?). I love talking to Brent (even with his stutter) because he always laughs at my jokes and makes fun of me when I say Oh for Heaven Sakes, Honesty or the occasional Hot Dog! I don't find it to be all that funny. It's the way I talk. So that was about all that happened today. I must say that I am disappointed in some of you for your lack of desire to blog. Shame on you all and screw you! Ha! Well as you can tell it's time for me to go to bed. Night.

Sunday, June 2, 2002 Long time no write my dear friends! I assure you that I was thinking about you guys the whole time I was in Arizona. Now here is my question to all of you: Why would anyone ever want to live in Arizona (don’t get defensive, I use to live there so I can say it). At eight in the morning it is already 100 degrees outside. Some may think, “Why not just go in a pool” but trust me that doesn’t help either. All you get is a sunburn and a ear infection; my sister got both, hah! Ok that was kind of evil. Well my weekend with the family wasn’t too bad. The drive was a killer but I had the opportunity to review all of my CD’s. Andrea is doing OK. I did have to drive her home last night cause some guy at the bar bought her a ton of martini’s (probably trying to get her drunk) and she was pretty messed up. We had a good talk despite the fact that she was wasted and I think she might come down this summer. Oh, speaking of the summer, I got the day camp job for the Y and I got the schedule of all the training crap I have to go to and every single thing conflicts with Oklahoma. Argh! I’m talking to Justine (the Y director) and Bob (my Oklahoma director) and I’ll try to work something out. I can’t loose the play. I’m so pumped up for it. Did you know that I get paid over three hundred dollars a week working for the camp That’s a really good amount of money even after taxes and I get that money back anyway. Seminary graduation was tonight. I was sitting here typing thinking that I should go to bed because of seminary and it hit me, I’M DONE FOREVER WITH SEMINARY! I don’t think I’ll get up till 6:30 tomorrow. Yummy that sounds good. I think that’s all for tonight’s tid-bit. Real quick I just want all my girls to know I had no Arizona scandal this time so don’t even ask. Night Reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee’s.

Tuesday, May 28, 2002 Hey guys! I just found out that I'm done with my seminary make-ups and there are only three days left of seminary! Don't get me wrong, I love seminary (stop smirking, I really do like it) but I can only take so much of the getting up really early and struggling to stay awake for the obviously important information being given to me. Oh well, just know that if I am smiling at all next week it's cause I didn't wake up till 6:30. Hey! I got my glasses today. It turns out that they have been ready for a week and one of my siblings forgot to tell me. Stupid kids. If eyes could smile mine would be laughing hysterically. Happiness! So I figured out my next two semesters in college. I get to take this trail riding class on Friday that involves a small fee and they give you the trailer and the horse to ride. So it's pretty much trail riding for 3 hours. Hooray for college! Oh, so I asked Mr. Boal what my grade was today (expecting him to say F) and I still have my C. I don’t know how that happened on account of my failure to turn in a homework assignment and missing a test. So I think I'll just stop worrying about school. Splendid! I had my first rehearsal of a kissing scene for Oklahoma. It was with the 30-year-old guy but good news (depending on how you look at it), he only kisses up my arm and I don’t have to really kiss him. I'm really relived. Olivia had to practice it first and she was so embarrassed that she was practically pulling away from him when she's supposed to want him. The problem with the guy is that he has a hairy face and it tickles. That's really not cool. My day started out whatever and ended being whatever. I think it's a continuous cycle for me. Night.

Saturday, May 25, 2002 Oh what a beautiful morning, Oh what a beautiful day. I think summer is finally here. The beach was gorgeous yesterday. The sun was shinning (I have a sunburn to prove it) and the water was bearable. I spent the day doing fun stuff and not just lying around. First Kelly and I made a Mexican step pyramid sand castle, which looked pretty good, and then I went into the water. Oooh, story time. So Kelly and I are on the buggy board and I see something that looks like a golden retriever in the water. It’s pretty far out so I watch it to see if it’s ok. The thing dives again and it doesn’t come up for a long time and I’m getting worried and then I see it again and it’s a sea lion. Kelly barley see’s it and she thinks it’s a shark (some guy was scaring her about sharks a few minutes before) so Kelly swims for the shore and I take the board out after it. I get close but soon it out swam me and I was left marveling at my good fortune. That really made my day. The rest of Senior Ditch day was nice. I wish Rachel were there. We would have had a whole lot of fun together. Oh well. The In-n-Out truck was a little disappointing. There weren’t any fries and the burgers weren’t that great. Maybe I was just really hungry and the burger didn’t meet my expectations. Friday night I babysat and this morning I went to play practice to dance and tonight I get to baby-sit again. Yay! That’s about it. I’m really tired to day for some reason and my sisters Becky and Leah are down for the weekend. Woohoo! Hey I got my prom pictures today and they’re not bad. I’ll bring them to school on Tue. Bye ya’ll.

Thursday, May 23, 2002 Hey so a very interesting day. During SSR I figured that I should probably sign up for senior ditch day and when I went Mrs. Nichole yelled at me and told me that I couldn’t go or I’d be marked truant. I course I was already figuring out how to drive myself down there. Then in ceramics Paul Cohen (yeah the one I haven’t talked to for two years) comes up and asks me if I wanted to go on the senior trip cause my name was on the list and it was crossed out. Paul wanted to go so he took my spot. He was afraid that he had wrongly booted me off the bus. I told him not to worry and after school I went back to Mrs. Nichol and I managed to smile my way onto the bus. She got real quiet and told me not to tell anyone but I can just show up and she’ll sneak me in. Hah! I didn’t even have to bother with the 10-dollar thing. So it’s 10 and I just got off AOL and I actually IM’ed Paul and told him not to worry about the whole thing. I remembered his E-Mail address from freshman year. It was good to talk to him but it made me wonder what he thinks about me. Does he still like me or does he think I’m a jerk. Maybe I’ll really talk to him before the years up. Hooray for Ado Annie. It’s now a full-fledged mission for me to make this part the best I can. I feel like I’m becoming the character and today I said cain’t instead of can’t. So she’s growing on me. Well I have a busy day tomorrow so I think I’ll retire for the night. Smooch!

Wednesday, May 22, 2002 Once again I have another Wed. that I'm not sure whether it was productful or not. I got up at 6 for seminary (just one week left) and then I went back to sleep at 7. Got up again and went to chambers to see Eric and he wasn't there. So we sang and Michelle came to hear us sing. I hope she wasn't too bored. Then I made some CD's namely Sarah McLaughin, Creed and Oklahoma. Kris came over and he spiked his hair & made it black today and I told him he looked hot. Well he did. After that babysitting and that was my day. For those of you who choose not to baby-sit, I ask you why. I get paid 10 dollars an hour to hang out with one little girl and take her jumping on my trampoline. 20 bucks for just two hours. God Bless La Canada where the moms try to pay more than everyone else’s parents till it hits 10. Ha! Ok here we go with a little mental math. In Oklahoma Ado Annie gets kissed seven times in the play. Now we're doing four performances but I'm only in 2 of them so that's 14 kisses in two nights. This whole stage kissing kind of weirds me out. Kris tried to explain it to me but that just made it worse. The worst part about it is that one of the guy's I'm supposed to kiss is a thirty-year-old guy. SICK! Kris says that's acting but I'm not doing that. So boo for acting. That's about all my say I have for today (that rhymes). Hugs and Kisses.

Tuesday, May 21, 2002 TRAUMA, TRAUMA, TRAUMA. So I was sitting at my family room table decorating my new movie theme CD and I heard my dog yelping. She was up on the golf course digging a hole so I just thought that one of the golfers probably grabbed her. I called out to her and started going up the hill when she yelps again like she was in real pain. I got up just in time to see a coyote running away and my dog tearing down the hill as fast as she could run. This is Limo's third coyote attack and amazingly she hasn't died yet. So I took her inside and she had some real deep puncture wounds on her back. My mom wasn't home so I put some Neosporin on and bandaged her up. I checked for shock with a flashlight and her pupils weren’t dilated, thank goodness. So my mom's back now and she'll take her to the vet tomorrow. Poor Limo. She's going to be alright so don't worry too much. So that was my trauma for the day and I have to go to play practice tonight and they'll find out that I'm not a real actor. Too late, I'm in it now. Ha! I'm glad everyone is having a good time lately. I am too but school is making me take tests and do homework and I don’t appreciate that. Stupid school. Oh well. Got to go. See you all later.

Monday, May 20, 2002 Hey guys. Today might be kind of a random entry. If you saw me at all I'm not quite all here. I'm not sure why. Maybe it's the first day in awhile that I've been present at the beginning of school. Nothing of importance happened and I was sitting at school wondering what I was doing in class when there was rain to be played in and books to be read. All I wanted to do was curl up in a blanket (a boy to curl up with is preferable but not available) so the blanket, a good book and hot chocolate in a mug. That's all I really desire for. Not too much to ask for in my opinion. So I just came back from senior song tryouts and I think they went well. I don't want to put anymore work into it but I want it to just come together. Hah! Fat chance. I read three hundred pages in 5 hours today and my eyes are burning. Serves me right to read without my glasses. I'm excited for my first rehearsal for Ado Annie. This can be my release that will break the monotony of these days. Senior ditch day is on Friday. I hope its not one of those opportunities where the whole class comes together as "friends" and we all pretend that we are going to miss going to LCHS so much. Frankly I can’t wait to get out. I love La Canada but I need to move on and find something more stimulating than finding the origin of the English language. All right, I'm done with my crying for tonight and by the way martin, the two fish wanted you WITH A LILLY style (if you know what I mean). Good times! Well till tomorrow.

Sunday, May 19, 2002 That’s funny Martin, really. See if I ever chalk your house again. Apparently the “for a good time call 1-800-666-fish” wasn’t good enough for you, fine. We’ll do some other bass next time. Well my Saturday was no big deal. I got up, did my hair and make-up and found nothing to do so I went to the library and read for about three hours and finished the 5 volume of Little House on the Prairie. Quite enjoyable. Then I went to a Mormon dinner for Sister Frandsen. Then back to my house with Rachel and Christian to watch The Little Mermaid. Really the highlight of my day. Afterwards Rachel and I met up with Whitney Towndsen. We went around and did some more chalking and that concluded my night. So anyways, Kelly’s at Episode II tonight and her mom is in Las Vegas. It’s 12:30 (kelly’s curfew) and she’s not answering her cell phone. Probably cause she’s in the movie. Well her mom just called my house, it’s really late, and she’s having me hunt down Kelly for her. Really! I know some moms worry but this is kind of extreme. It’s 10 minutes past her curfew and her mom is flipping out. Once again- THANK GOODNESS FOR MY PARENTS. So with that I leave you all. I don’t know why I even chose to try to write tonight. My life is so boring. Sigh.

Friday, May 17, 2002 Ok, it's catch up time. Wednesday night I went to Pasadena at eight to get into line for the 12:01 showing of Episode II. The guys I went with brought the flashlight light sabers and we had so much fun waiting four hours for the movie to start. At one point in the theater everyone with a light saber came down to the front and had a huge battle. In line we made friends with everyone (some people were kind of weird) and we had these great light saber fights out on the sidewalk with people going by. When 12 rolled around I could have gone home and had had a great night. Episode II was surprisingly good and I managed to stay awake through the whole thing even though it didn't end till three. Then yesterday I went to play practice and I found out that I got Ado Annie in Oklahoma. Hooray for me! There are four performances and they made two people the part and I got one. I'm a little afraid for this part. I've never seriously acted before. If I could just sing the whole time that would be great. It's funny that the character is this great flirt that just cant get enough of boys. Maybe I should just be myself. HaHa..... JK. Ok the best story of the day. Missy and I are tired of school so she comes over and we buy chalk to decorate driveways with. We're thinking that it's not enough to just chalk, we have to do it doubled up on my moped. So we drop by Kelly’s and we decide to drive pass the school at lunch honking and waving. Picture this.... two girls on a moped with huge black and red helmets on, honking and screaming tearing through the parking lot in front of their peers. It puts a smile on my face. We come back around for another go and the security guards are coming at us so we bolt and do a couple more houses. Good times! Well that's about all you get today. Happy thoughts everyone and have a great weekend.

Wednesday, May 15, 2002 Ok, here's the second entry of the day. I slept in till about 9 (something I've been doing all week) and arrived to chambers a bit late. Mrs. Rois wasn't even there yet so no big deal. Chambers was great today. We made music together and we also just had a ton of fun, which I missed doing. Having Mrs. Rois comment about my skinny-dipping didn't really tickle me. Really, could I be anymore embarrassed? As I remember it, at least 10 other girls went topless into the pool as well as myself. I was the only one who didn't really want to do it and Rachel's enthusiasm is the thing that finally won over. Paul asked me what this whole pool thing was about and he gave me one of his disapproving looks. Cute Paul. Well I get to go see Episode II at midnight tonight. We're arriving at the theater at eight to get in line. I think Kris, Jimmy and Ryan might even dress up. It's gonna be great. I'll just read Little Women till the movie starts. I have to go. Talk later.

Wednesday, May 15, 2002 I'll just make a quick entry to say that there is no river flowing for me right now. the reference to the river is a quote from and Incubus song. I only put it in cause I didn't know how to spell diamond for a different quote. So that's it. I'll write some more later.

Monday, May 13, 2002 HOT HOT HOT! (and I'm not talking about Martin)... could it possibly be any hotter outside? I wish I had a clear blue pool to jump into. If anyone reading this has a pool I would like you to know that I feel complete and utter hatred towards you. But then again I can get out of school and go to the largest pool on this earth. That's right, the beach. Few people I know can just up and leave school whenever they want to. This morning when I woke up at 10 my mom asked if I was ever going to school again. Hah, come on mom. I'm 18. Well chambers was good today. It was a good thing for Andrew he wasn't in class today. He would have gotten only dirty looks and a cold shoulder from me. Shame on you Andrew! We might have some issues from now on. Anyway, in chambers we dropped the Danny Boy (thank goodness) and hopefully we'll find a real nice one to learn. Better than Flanders Fields. Oh, I have to go get the kids from school. Bye

Sunday, May 12, 2002 Happy Mothers Day! And what a beautiful mothers day it is. We went to Descanso Gardens this morning and the flowers were breathtaking. The best part was this lady playing the harp. It was so nice to sit and listen to wonderful music surrounded by flowers and listening to the bird’s chirp and the wind blow. I made the Moby- play CD yesterday and the Incubus- Science. I must say that I’m a little disappointed in the Incubus but the moby is great. My computer is broken so we can’t hear the songs till we’ve made a CD of them. Sometimes I end up with songs I don’t really like. I do like the lyrics to Incubus’s songs. I copied one called Glass so here it is............ If I had a dime for every time you walked away, I could afford to not give a s--- and buy a drink and drown the day. But your pockets, they are empty, yeh, and mine are times two So why not make an about-face, and accept the love I send to you? You're never gonna be content if you dont try, try to see outside your line. There you go, you did it again! You act as if there's binder on your eyes. Should I apologize if what I say burns your ears and stains your eyes?! Oh, did I crack your shell? When it falls away, you'll see we exist as well! Like a bottle with the cork stuck, you’re true ingredients are trapped inside. Through the cloudy glass we catch a glimpse of you, I guess the hard shell represents your pride. Oh, if only it could be different we could uncover the you, you deny. Between two, a small discrepancy, one complicates and one simplifies. TAKE THOSE F---inG BLINDERS OFF YOUR EYES!! So if I had a dime for every time you walked away, you could bet your bottom dollar that I'd be filthy rich by noon today ..................It’s so great the way the song talks about her shell. It makes you wonder who in my life is being real and who is putting on an act. He’s so angry with this self-centered girl and he’s so pissed about the way she is. I love it. The Argentinians get back today so maybe I’ll see them. That’s about it for today. I can’t wait for Chamber Singers tomorrow. Maybe we’ll make some music finally. :^)

Saturday, May 11, 2002 This week went by really fast. It feels like prom just happened and at the same time it feels like it was forever ago. I know that doesn’t make much sense sometimes life doesn’t make sense. Well last night was fun. I babysat for a bit and then I went down to Manhattan Beach for the bonfire. That was fun but I felt guilty about not going to Comedy Sportz (martin was mad) so I drove back in time to catch the last bit of it. It was really funny and I was able to meet up with Whitney to go over to the bowling place so it worked out. Bowling was fun but I didn’t know anyone there. After bowling Whitney came home with me and spent the night at my house. I love sleepovers. I was able to tell Whitney how proud I was of her that she has done so well this year at LC. Today was all right. I hung out with Melody, Virgil and Kris. We baked brownies and went swimming. I have decided that the beach and the pool are not my friends. I hate bathing suits because either they suck at supporting me or they make me look less than desirable. I want a tight bathing suit to hold in my upper but a normal one to fit all the rest of me. Maybe I should just go naked. Sadly enough that would create more problems than it would solve. Anyway, Mel, Virgil and I took Andrew brownies for his birthday. It sounds like he’ll have a great time with his friends tonight. I mean, its no prom but few are so lucky. Tonight I’m going to dinner to celebrate Jimmy getting into Georgetown and after that hopefully I’ll go to the Mormon dance and get my grove on with a bunch of MoMo’s. On a sadder note it is my unfortunate obligation to inform all that my California Poppies have died. After only 5 days of life the poppies have shriveled and passed on to a better place. This is the first death I have had in my garden (beside the watermelon, but that was never meant to be). So I would ask that you all remember the poppies in your prayers tonight and lets all hope for a better future for the garden. Live long and prosper my little friends.

Thursday, May 9, 2002 Today was a blah day. You know the kind I'm talking about where every second of it is spent with the thought "I could be doing so much more right now". Whitney wasn’t in Government and we did nothing for two hours (Other than having Mr. Boal strike up a conversation with me about his wife going to the east). Then on to English where we watch some stupid video all period about how language has developed in America. Argh! So boring. At least ceramics was fun. I'm on the wheel and at first I was frustrated because I wasn't doing well and nothing was making sense but now I think I'm getting the hang of it. My mom and I just got back from getting me glasses and I realized the wonderful relationship we have. She treats me like an adult and we were able to have a conflict free discussion about my curfew. I thought that since I'm 18 and a legal adult my curfew should be extended. She agreed and gave me 1:00. That was cool. I tried to remember the last time my mom was disappointed in me (she has never yelled at me) and I can't remember a time. For some people they cant remember the last time they and their parents got along. I feel so lucky to have such a wonderful mom. This weekend should be fun. Whitney T. and I are hanging out on Friday first seeing the Comedy Sportz game and then going bowling with some guy that she met at Sport Chalet so that should be nice. I love being able to spend time with her. She just makes me so happy and so girlish. Well I think I'll go finish my Star Trek show from last night. I don't know if I'm going to school tomorrow. We'll see.

Wednesday, May 8, 2002 Well my program just froze so I get another chance to start this entry again. I began the other by stating that nothing of importance has happened. Then I forgot that my date, prom and my birthday had all happened this weekend. Silly me. Well the date was OK. It’s strange that I can go on a date with Tristan and feel like I’m hanging out with my little brother and then when I went on a date with Martin I could be scared to death. It just goes to show the different feelings someone can have for another person and how those feelings can dictate the night. I saw Spiderman on Friday night and it was surprisingly good. I don’t like to have expectations for a movie. If it ends up surprising me and it’s good I like it even more. So that’s the way that Spiderman went. Then all Saturday I got ready for Prom and we had pictures at my house. All night long I heard “happy birthday” and “you look so beautiful”. I love girls. What would we do without each other. Imagine if guys walked around saying “Oh, that tux just sets off your eye’s” or “you’re wearing that new Tommy cologne aren’t you?” Ha, that would be funny. I could see some guys doing it but the ones I went with. Not a chance. So afterwards some people slept over at my house and others went to Lexie’s to drink. Big surprise. Sometimes I think it’s unfair that all these people get to drink and loose themselves. I mean, if they screw up they can blame it on the alcohol. That doesn’t seem fair. Anyway, We finally had a birthday cake for me yesterday and sadly enough I have still not received one birthday present from either my family or my friends (although I do have many promises of already bought gifts). So eventually someone will probably get me something. Not that I’m complaining. I’m really not that materialistic. I got my hair cut today and it’s pretty short but I like it anyways. Then I paid, PAID, to have my car wash. I never thought I would stoop that low. Shame on me but I just couldn’t take a dirty car much longer. Michelle & Liz are here so they say HI. Liz just had sex last night! JK Oh, they left. Michelle and I are ditching on Friday to go to the beach if the weathers nice so that should be fun. Speaking of ditching- I have not been to school for a whole day all this week. Actually I haven’t gotten to school till 10 each day. The best thing about it is that my mom just lets me sleep and she takes the kids to school. I love her. Chamber Singers was weird today. It seems that all the girls (and Jeff) chose today to be a national P.M.S. day. I just wish there would be more singing and less talking. Good thing some people still make it good times in Chambies. Well that’s about all I can handle of typing for today. Oh yeah I interviewed for day camp at the YMCA today. I hope I get the job. Love to you all.

Thursday, May 2, 2002 I can't tell if today was a successful day or not. I went to school for a whole day (almost didn't happen) and I got stranded at the school. Well actually let me back up a little bit. This morning I couldn't find the keys to my car. So I took the moped to school. That was quite enjoyable. I get back home and find out that my moms suburban batteries died. We jump-started it then I went to pick up the kids from school. I pull onto Viro and turn off the car but left the radio on cause it was a good song. Well lo and behold, I cant turn the car back on so I walk out barefoot, find the kids, call my mom and wait a half-an-hour for the tow truck guy to jump me. Then I go home to learn that my babysitting job cancelled. Hey, I'll make the best of it. Why not go out looking for a necklace for prom. I just want a silver, droopy, diamond necklace. Sounds simple right? 2 hour later I still cant find something that looks anything like the kind I want. Sigh...I hate shopping. My moms going to go out tomorrow and look for one. So it was kind of a good day but not really. I'm excited for my date with Tristan. That should be a good chill night. 2 DAYS TILL MY BIRTHDAY!!! How childish of me to be so excited but Oh Well. That's life. I LOVE SAT 9 TESTING!!! This has been the best week of my life. Everyone’s happy on this schedule. Why not just keep it this way? Oh, I ran tonight and I feel great. I don't really run cause sometimes I can't breath when I try but tonight when I got dizzy I just ran harder. Maybe that was a bad idea but now I know I can. Hooray! I'm sleepy. I think I'll go to bed. Night................

Tuesday, April 30, 2002 I thought I'd blog on and congratulate everyone on their wonderful love lives and the happy relationships they are having. Some of you might not believe that I say that with no sarcasm in my voice but it's true. I love to hear that people are happy and what better time than before prom. I went over to Jimmy's to pick up his permission form and I realized that I'm going to have a really great time with him (even if he talks about Lindsey all night long). It looks like after prom we'll hang out at a hotel for a bit and then head back over to my house with some others and sleep over here. My house is probably the scapegoat for all the people that have psycho parents. Anywho, I took Becky to the airport today which means that I'm the oldest again. Thank goodness! Ah, another plus, I turn 18 on Saturday. You all think that I'm never at school. Well you aint seen nothin' yet. Hah! Oh, I got to go pick the kids up from piano. Love you all

Friday, April 26, 2002 Hey everyone. I hope your all having a more thought challenging day than I am. Sometimes I wonder if I should be taking it so easy this year. Wait, not this year, my whole high school existence. Shoot! I might be screwed for College. What if I get up there and I don’t know how to be responsible and work. Argh! Overload. Sorry. I’m a little frazzled right now. Towards the end of the week I just stop being able to concentrate. So I was handing out with Caleb last night and we were planning the date that we’re taking Tristan and Rachel on next week. Oh, I have to tell you guys about this. I find it really funny. Ok so on Wed I was at Rite Aid getting my pictures from Tour developed and I ran into Mandy. We started talking and she said something like, “Tristin and I have decided just to date” and I told her what a great idea and also that I had asked him out on a date so he was really going to try this dating thing out. She did this kinda half smile and said that was cool in a kind of “don’t try anything with him” look. So I thought that was funny in a “girls are really jealous” way. I think I’ll give him a kiss on the check just to spite her. Hah. Well Kris is here so I have to go. Love you all.

Wednesday, April 24, 2002 Things are looking up for the future. Both of my older sisters will be gone in a week and school has become even easier if that’s at all possible. I got a call back for my churches play Oklahoma. I really want to be Addle Annie. She plays this great part of a girl who likes boys so much that she can never say no. Sounds familiar except the saying no part. Yesterday I went with Liz, Jen and Jess to ask Brent to prom for Liz. Brent was out on the field practicing track and Wow! I forgot how cute he was. Its as if when he liked me I had took a drug to make me a retard or something. Stupid, stupid, stupid! All right, I’m over it now. Oh today I asked Tristan out on a date. Caleb asked Rachel so it would be a double date. Caleb was so nervous. Tristan said yes but Rachel can’t do it this weekend so we changed it to next Friday. I’m excited to go with Tristan. We always seem to have a good time with one another. On tour we talked about the girls in his grade and how dumb they are for not dating and just wanting to hook up. He said he just wants to date people so I thought I’d take him on one and show him a good time. Not that kind of good time. Really! Well that’s about all I have to say right now so congratulation to Andrew. Dustin sounds cool. Kisses for you all!

Monday, April 22, 2002 Why did it all have to end? I wish that the bus had kept on driving and the whole choir could have gone to Mexico or something. I'm debating whether or not to try to go through tour and tell about everything or simply leave it at, “it was so great!” I guess someone's got to say it and I want to be able to look back at the best times of my life. Well, Wed. after a long drive we arrived in SF and me, Julie, Rachel and Missy all went to the Warf where we found matching shirts that said "Alcatraze admittants; Rejected: Too cute!" so that was fun. Then we went and hung out with Ross, Troy and Nathan till bedtime. The next day was really tough. We had a day of 3 workshops. That's 6 hours! During lunch I was giving Nathan a Piggy Back ride and some pictures were take of him and I in compromising positions. Don't believe any of them! I cant really remember the next night but the following day we moved hotels and went to a singing competition where we created the most beautiful singing that any choir has ever done. It almost brought me to tears and that says a lot cause I'm not much of a touchy, criey person. The day after that we went to Great America and if you do your math you realize that we were there on 4/20. If that means nothing to you, that's good. Stay that way. If you know what I'm talking about you would realize why the cops got really nervous at 4:20 that day. Some people got busted and a fight broke out in the parking lot. Some people got stabbed I think. The festival we were in threw all the choirs an awards ceremony and a dance. We swept the competition (First in Chamber division, First in all choirs and Best in show) so way to go us. I coveted for those trophies in a way very unmormon like. Speaking of unmormon like the evening got more so as the night wore on. From the ceremony we stayed for the dance and the whole danced together and moved to swing, country, rap, oldies and salsa. Too much fun. This one guy was stalking Rachel (he was 15) and at one point I got Rachel to let me pretend to be a lesbian but in the end she failed me (a frowny face :(---- oh well. We got back to the hotel at 10 and we had affirmation for 3 hours. It was touching but the room was also 100 degrees at least and we couldn't do anything to cool off. This factor might also have caused for the next activity to come to pass. If you have a really high opinion of me and you think I'm perfect you shouldn't read this next part. All of us girls were hot and it was 2:30 in the morning so what else to do than to skinny-dip in the pool. Don't worry, it was just the girls and we kept out bottoms on. I wasn't going to do it but than Rachel said yes so I thought what the heck. I must say it was one of the more risky things I have ever done and I'm so glad that I didn't get caught. Unfortunately we did have a casualty from the activity. While all us girls were running into the elevator (still half naked) Julie slipped and fell on the tile and she has a huge burse on her knee. Poor Julie The rest of the night was filled with talks and sharing a bed with Caleb and Rachel. So all in all I miss tour terribly and I want to hang out with all of them this weekend. Now back to the real world and back to the world of Prom planning. I might take my own car- there's limited space in the limo- and I'm trying to organize after prom. The campsite is harder than I thought so I was thinking a camp up the crest that had a big lounge we could stay in. Worse comes to worse my dad said he would get rid of the family and we could do it at my house but I think we could do better than that. So that concludes my entire. See you all later!

Monday, April 15, 2002 Nothing of particular importance happened today. Sadly enough the highlight of my day was getting my dog back from the kennel. I know, I know, she's a dog but if you know anything about me it's that I'm obsessed with my dog. I held her for an hour while she whined with joy. She gets so traumatized away from her family. So pathetic! Oh! She just walked in right now and she's still whining. How cute. Well, school today was uneventful. It was one of those days that you can honestly say to your mother that nothing of importance happened at school. I went to lunch with Jimmy and Rachel and that was really great. Jimmy just has to be the sweetest guy ever. One and a half days left till tour. We got the schedule today. I've decided that on Friday and Sat night I'm going to stay up all night talking and cuddling. My room is going to be the best. It's me, Rachel, Missy and Julie. Thank goodness I don’t have Soraya or Liz in my room. I sometimes get easily annoyed and they would be the ones to do it to me. I hope tours fun with Mrs. Rios. She seems to be in a bad mood lately. Bummer. Well I'll bring this entire to a close and spend one more night wishing it were Wed morning.

Sunday, April 14, 2002 I'm back! Jezz, I didn't realize how much I missed all my friends till I came home. A week with the family can have its difficult moments. Well the rest of New York was cool enough. Central Park was beautiful (the only reason I would ever live in New York. The church sights were educational and fulfilling, although my siblings didn't feel same way. In New York I started having trouble understanding one aspect of the history of my church, namely polygamy. By reading my book and praying I think I finally figured out my feelings towards it. Talking to Kris about it helped too.... Oh my gosh! Tour is in 2 days! I'm so excited. I love everyone in the choir so much. I came home from NYC and I wished I could get together with the choir and have another sleepover. Patience is a virtue. I'm excited to talk to Tristan all night about Mandy and to be hug attacked by Greg. I wonder how the bus rides going to be. I think everyone is getting drunk the night before so they can be held over for the week. Stupid people, they're going to throw up on the bus and have the ride from Hell to San Francisco. Oh, Jimmy said yes to me. I'm having lunch with him tomorrow (it's his ditch day) so that should be great. Well it's late and I'm tired so goodnight

Monday, April 8, 2002 Hello everyone! Guess what? I’m writing you from New York. This new age of technology never ceases to amaze me. Think about it, I can tell you all about my day and you can read it hundreds of miles away. It’s about 10 o’clock here in NYC and I’m so tired. I woke up at 4 on Sunday (it felt like 3 with daylight savings) and I went on a seven-hour plane ride to get here. With the additional 3 hours that I lost and the daylight saving hour gone it was dark by the time we arrived. Before retiring for bed, my family and I went to the top of the Empire State building. The view was beautiful but NYC is really cold at night. It’s at least 35-40 degrees. After a less than restful night, my first day here commenced as follows: First we hopped on a subway (a claustrophobic’s nightmare) and we headed over to the ground zero sight. I wish you all could see the outpouring of sympathy and affection everyone is showing NYC. Along the WTC building pit is a fence that is covered with flowers and pictures and posters wishing the families the best of luck. I saw a British flag signed by a little child and it made me cry. I feel so privileged to be a part of this nation. So from there we passed by the stock exchange and took a ferry over to the statue of liberty and Ellis Island. That was cool but we couldn’t climb the statue. After that we went to Times Square and then back to the hotel. All in all my day has been filled with all sorts of exciting things. Tomorrow we go to Central Park and then maybe a Broadway show. I’m mostly excited to go see where Joseph Smith grew up and also to go see Niagara Falls. I cant wait to see you all again and I cant wait for Chamber Singers tour. I’ll try not to come back too tired. Hopefully my two-day rest at home will be sufficient for me to relax before tour. Well pep’s, I got to go now. I hope you’re all having a great break.

Monday, April 8, 2002 Hello everyone! Guess what? I’m writing you from New York. This new age of technology never ceases to amaze me. Think about it, I can tell you all about my day and you can read it hundreds of miles away. It’s about 10 o’clock here in NYC and I’m so tired. I woke up at 4 on Sunday (it felt like 3 with daylight savings) and I went on a seven-hour plane ride to get here. With the additional 3 hours that I lost and the daylight saving hour gone it was dark by the time we arrived. Before retiring for bed, my family and I went to the top of the Empire State building. The view was beautiful but NYC is really cold at night. It’s at least 35-40 degrees. After a less than restful night, my first day here commenced as follows: First we hopped on a subway (a claustrophobic’s nightmare) and we headed over to the ground zero sight. I wish you all could see the outpouring of sympathy and affection everyone is showing NYC. Along the WTC building pit is a fence that is covered with flowers and pictures and posters wishing the families the best of luck. I saw a British flag signed by a little child and it made me cry. I feel so privileged to be a part of this nation. So from there we passed by the stock exchange and took a ferry over to the statue of liberty and Ellis Island. That was cool but we couldn’t climb the statue. After that we went to Times Square and then back to the hotel. All in all my day has been filled with all sorts of exciting things. Tomorrow we go to Central Park and then maybe a Broadway show. I’m mostly excited to go see where Joseph Smith grew up and also to go see Niagara Falls. I cant wait to see you all again and I cant wait for Chamber Singers tour. I’ll try not to come back too tired. Hopefully my two-day rest at home will be sufficient for me to relax before tour. Well pep’s, I got to go now. I hope you’re all having a great break.

Saturday, April 6, 2002 So long guys! I'm off to New York. I'll try to blog in some time on my trip but if not...see you in a week.

Friday, April 5, 2002 I get Krispy Kream Doughnuts tomorrow! Hooray for the Dodgers who beat the Rockies like 13 to 0 (or something like that). My first Dodger game was a complete success. One random guy ran onto the field, another guy got hit in the face with a fly ball and was injured and the whole audience was promised Krispy Kreams if we beat the other team without allowing them to score any runs. So that was really great. I'm so grateful to have Kris as a friend. If I had to choose anyone to go to ricks with me it would be him (Rachel and Kelly are ditching me!) so he and I should have good times up there. Well today in Ceramics I got a lovely surprise. Martin came in and gave me our Backwards picture. Ahhh it was so funny. It looks like I'm groping him and he's standing there with his hands up like, "Well if you have to. Get it done quickly". I don't think I'll be showing my mother that one anytime soon. So I think I know how I'm going to ask Jimmy but I wont say for sure till tomorrow when I do it. Then I'll give a full update. Well lovely's, my bedtime has arrived and I shall now take my leave of you. Farewell!

Thursday, April 4, 2002 I don't know what to say to everyone. STOP BEING SO SAD. I bet I could think up more positive things about you than you could for me (really, come up to me. I want to show you). Rachel’s breakdown came as a complete shock to me. I love her more than I ever thought I could love a girl and it makes me want to cry seeing those sparkly salty tears rolling down that beautiful, constantly happy face of hers. Oh Rachel, if I could show you a glimpse of the affection, gratitude and open admiration I feel towards you, all your problems would seem insignificant. We all just need to find a comfort and happiness within ourselves. I was feeling kind of down lately so I went jogging for the first time in months and it felt great. If only I could work on my eating habits. Sigh.... Well after tomorrow it's New York for a week and then CS tour. Hooray!!! Ha, school. What school? I'll be gone for 2 weeks. Mr. Boal will just have to do without me. I have a confession to make. Today I went bathing suit shopping and I didn't intend to stay very long but I ended up buying some shirts and shorts along with the suit. Normally I hate shopping but being by myself, trying on stuff was borderline enjoyable. Shame on me, I should have used that money (yes, I work for my money) foe NYC, tour or prom. Oh well, I'm set for summer. So that along with setting up a fence with Kris around my garden is the highlights of my past couple of days. See you tomorrow!

Tuesday, April 2, 2002 Hey guys! this entree is going to be a quick one. I'm really tierd after my long day. So school was OK today. Chamber Singers was fun. I seemed to have become the punching, slapping, poking bag of CS. It's kinda nice though cause I know they wouldn't act that way towards me unless the were comfortable being around me. I'm really going to miss those guys. We're learning a new song in choir and for some reason I'm having a tough time with the second sop line. Oh well, that's life. Ceramics was entertaining today. Mr. Koffman was teaching me how to pull a handle for my mug and it's kinda embarrising the way he taught me. You start out with a ball of clay and you narrow it down to a cone and finaly to a penis looking strip of clay. The best is what he tells you to do. "start at the top and gently stroke down applying pressure at the top" and "When you get down to the head of it give it an extra sqease". Him saying that coupled with the jacking off motion wasn't the most appropreate thing. I did however get a few comments from others saying that it looked like I had done that before. Ah the maturity level at LC. Well for the remainder of the day I went with my church to the Temple to ordanences for people that have died already. We do stuff like get babtized for them and other stuff. It's always such a great experience for me. I love my religion so much! Hummmm....I'm kinda tierd and that was a pretty good summery of my day. Oh by the way, I talked to Patrijia today and she said that I could take Jimmy to Prom so Yay! Pleasent dreams everyone.

Sunday, March 31, 2002 Hooray for close friends, sleepovers and singing for popcorn! That's exactly what this week entailed. Well the sleepover was a total success. Only a few people weren’t able to go but we had fun with those of us who were there. I'll highlight some top moments of the night for those of you who aren’t in choir. Erin is a member of the choir and she was working at starbucks so we came down to say hi to her. We first sang in Starbucks and when it became apparent that we weren’t going to get any drinks out of it we went up to United Artist to sing for popcorn. Amazingly they actually gave us the popcorn when we finished a horrible version of With A Lilly. Maybe they just wanted to get rid of us. So we dropped by Ralph’s and got two blocks of ice. Guess what we did next. You're right! Ice Blocking! This may come as a shock to some of you but I have never been ice blocking. I know that I live next to a golf course but it just didn't seem fun. Little did I know. So that adventure was a fun one and I even met up with Kelly and her group. Good Times! So back to the sleepover. We played a rousing game of Truth or Dare (the teenage excuse to try to satisfy sexual tension) and that too was fun. The results of which I'm not at liberty to disclose. Ha! Then Caleb and I went for a drive and we listened to Incubus and just talked about random things. Some people think something happened but it didn't. I can’t say it simpler than that. After that me and just about all the guys left sat on a bed and chatted for a bit. I can't really remember what we talked about (it was late) but I remember biting Tristan a lot. He's such a great guy. He reminds me so much of my little brother that I can't help but goof around with him. Now the sleeping arrangements of the night had to be the best. There was on one side of me (really on one side of me-we all shared a bed) an atheist who believes in no God and on the other a homosexual Jew who doesn't believe in Christ. Then there was me- a Mormon- in-between the two. Interesting enough those were the only two I would have felt comfortable doing that with. It was weird though, waking up in the middle of the night spooned with martin and not remembering where I was. Strange how every time I woke up I was closer & closer to my sleeping companions. I thought the bear would stop me from cuddling but I guess my natural instinct were too strong. I hope Martin and Andrew were OK with that. Martin did say that he was cold so hopefully he didn't mind. So once again I walk away from a CS sleepover having slept with a couple of guys. Ah, if only my mom could stumble across that statement on the computer screen. That would make for an interesting conversation. So that was my Friday night and it was a kick. Unfortunately the rest of my weekend was not quite so exiting. Sat I washed my car and went to a Mormon thing. Then later on that night I first hung out with Zack and Jimmy and then Jimmy and I met up with Kelly and we played a game of capture the flag at PCY. That was really fun. I always enjoy hanging out with Jimmy. I always wonder if he ever has any fun. Well then Jimmy and I went to In-n-Out and met up with zack, Ryan, mike and Angela. Ryan was stoned off his a*% and he would start laughing at anything. Stupid people. I wish they didn’t smoke. Well, I wanted to leave after 5 min but of course it was the one time that I didn't have my car. Finally Jimmy gave me a ride home and in the car I was telling him about how my prom is on my birthday. Then I told him that I was worried that I wouldn't get asked and he said that if I didn't want to go with anyone he would be glad to have the honor of taking me to a dance on my birthday. Now readers, some of you might be thinking that I planned it that way but I really wasn't trying to get him to go with me. He thought of it. I would love to go to prom with Jimmy and I know that he would pay attention to me and treat me real good. But I think that Patrijia wanted to take him to our prom. But what if she doesn't. I want to ask him now so she can't take him. Oh, that's mean. I should ask her about that. Anyway, church today was long (4 hours) but it was actually enjoyable. So with that I close my weekend entree and I look forward to seeing you all tomorrow. Smooch!

Monday, March 25, 2002 I must confess that I'm sitting here thinking about what to write and realizing that Andrew is really the only one who's still does this. That's OK with me. I want My Favorite Jew to be the only one to read my blog. So maybe it's good that not to many people will be reading this blog. I'm a little bored so I think I'll write about my dream. Now for those who are judgmental or get taken aback easily I do not advise you to read this entry. I'm writing about it because I think it's funny and I also think that there is a reason why I had this dream. I'm open to suggestions. So here's my dream. I'm with a What-a-Tan co-worker and as a part of our job we have to go to a spa and get something done (I'm not sure what). So I go into the spa with my friend (who I've never seen before) and I have to wait with a bunch of other people before they can see me. Well the weird thing about this spa is that you wait for it by lying in a big shallow pool. So the next thing I know is that I'm sitting in the spa but I'm the only one without any clothes on. Normally in my dreams I would have been quite embarrassed but this time I just sat back and talked on with all the fully clothed people in the tub. This cute guy comes up and sits on my lap and starts talking to me. I'm thinking, "Do he not realize that I don't have any clothes on". Then I see that Kris is pulling up in his truck (we're in a store that has a window so the people on the street can see you) and that's when I get scared and run for my clothes. That's the first part of my dream. The second part takes place at a hotel and I'm sitting in the hall with Missy and Elizabeth. Missy passes me a shot of Vodka and I realize, happily, that I can drink and not feel bad. I take down three of them and I start looking around for a boy to kiss when I remember that Rachel's in the next room and I start feeling really bad about what I've done. I turn and run down the hall so Rachel won't find me. So those were the dreams that I had. Pretty strange that they both involved doing something wrong and I didn't realize it was wrong till Kris came and I thought of Rachel. But in both instances I really enjoyed the wrong thing that I was doing. Sitting in the tub naked got a really cute boy to sit on my lap and drinking in the dream made me feel all good inside. Anyway, the CS sleepover is on Friday so that should be a kick. Martin seems to think that Wannier and I are going to get together sometime but I don't think so. Interesting thought however. So that's my thoughts for today. I think I'll go write my essay now. I love my Jew!

Sunday, March 24, 2002 Hey guy's! Well its technically Sunday but its still Sat night. I think it's like 3 in the morning. Yeah I know that it's really late at night but I thought that I would write anyways. So I just came back from Backwards and I totally had more fun than I thought I would. The dinner was great, driving like a MANIAC listening to 20 different songs was great, and the dance was loads of fun. Even afterwards worked out with its lack of organization. I guess when you get a group of crazy people together you can't help but have a great time. I thought the night would be terrible from the beginning when I came home to discover that my mom had gone out of town for a couple days and I didn't have anyone to do my hair for me. Lucky I got a hold of Regan and she did it for me at her babysitting job. I was 15 min late to Martins house and I felt like a jerk making him wait. I hope he had a fun time. It was nice having Christian their to make him feel more comfortable. Overall the night was a wonderful success and only one dance remains. Prom. See but here's the problem with prom. It's on my birthday and my mom was saying how we better plan an activity for that night for when I don't get asked to prom. OUCH! Well unlike my mother I fully intend to go to prom but I want to go with someone that will either make it really enjoyable for me or someone who I really care about. I guess I'll cross that bridge when I get there. Wow! I suddenly just got really tired so I think I'll go to bed now. I hope everyone had a great weekend & I'll see you all sometime. Hugs and kisses!

Thursday, March 21, 2002 Ah Ha Ha C.V.!!! Dig that. Who out sung you? What, I can't hear you. Maybe cause you sing so poorly. Ha Ha Ha. Good Times. We'll if you haven't guessed yet we did well at the competition. Towards the end the only thing that mattered was beating C.V. I was getting nervous because they were doing a really good job singing. I was really proud of them for doing their best and sounding commendable. But, alas, it was not enough. In the Chamber division we got 4th and they got 5th and in the Concert Choir section we got 5th and they didn't place at all. The best was going up to sing our showcase song (for being placed) and we just had a great time singing what we loved. I finished the song after everyone else did (something that would normally be super embarrassing) but I was so happy I didn't care. Hey, at least I didn't do it in competition. So the 10-hour long singing competition came to a close as we drove home on the bus. What happened on the bus is really the funniest thing that happened all day. On men's tour the guys started singing a chant that went with this one soccer chant. You sing ole ole ole ole all together but instead of ole the boys sing Wannier, wannier, wannier, wannier. So we're all chanting the song and Greg Wannier (he’s the one they’re singing for; he’s sitting next to me) stands up and we all yell STRIP. So he takes off his jacket and we all scream. Then a few min later we start again with the chant resulting in the removal of his shoes. This goes on till the only thing he can take off is his shirt or his pants. By this point we are on the 3rd go around of Wannier and Mrs. Rios is yelling, "take it off" and Greg is more embarrassed than ever. I push him up and finally the noise gets to be too much and he pulls off his shirt and swings it around his head. A roar of cheers explode from the choir and Greg sits back down with a funny grin on his face. Ah, so funny! The weird thing was that Greg actually had a really nice body. He had the 6 packs and his back was surprisingly nice. He gave me a ride home and in the car he asked if he should have done that or not. He was also afraid that Mrs. Rios would think he had gone too far. I assured him positively on both issues and I told him that he should show off that sexy body of his more often. He was pleased with that and I got him to promise to get down to his boxers on tour. Ha tour. I am so exited for that. I love the choir so much and I realized that the people that I like the most aren’t the ones that I hang out with all the time. It's the random people that I see every day. I'm also going to miss those people the most. More likely than not I wont keep in touch with them. What a shame. So the Argentinean named Robert just called me now. I have been gone all the other times when he called (a strange relief) and he just got me now while I'm sitting here typing. The problem is that I really don’t like him that way and I don’t want to lead him on. Oh Annie, why do you have to get yourself into these predicaments? I can't just stop hanging out with the Argentineans but I enjoy them too much. But at the same time how do I not lead Robert on, stopping him from getting his feelings hurt. Really I just want the easy way out but like usual it doesn't exist. I'm just not going to do anything about it for the time being (another way I try to shield myself). I'll just wait till it gets unavoidable. What a mature attitude. Oh well. It's my bedtime and I am very tired. See you all later. Goodnight kisses all around.

Wednesday, March 20, 2002 Argh!...so much singing that it hurts my head. The most exhausting part about it is that we have a concert tonight and tomorrow is a 12 hour long competition where all of our hard working music making will hopefully pay off. It's just so frustrating in choir. I feel like the Chamber Singers are climbing up this steep hill and we've been shown only glimmers of what’s on the other side but for some reason we can't get up over that hill. I don't know whether it's people holding us back or we as a group are unable to rely on the music and fight our way up. We are so close that I think we only need a small push to send us crashing down the other side where music becomes something so much more. Well, tonight and tomorrow is the time to go over the top if we ever do. I hope the group can rely on each other. I hope I can. Sorry non-choir people for that ditty. When you sing every minute it get's to you. So Backwards this weekend. I'm really excited for the actual event but the preparation is killing me. We meet on Sunday to make plans. Now people want to join the group and a lot of people want to come after the dance. No Dice On That! Poor Whitney has to turn people down and she's really worried about the neighbors getting mad. Now Martin. Listen up. My parents might not let me even have the car on Saturday much less allow my date to drive the car to Universal City Walk. This car is a Suburban. These guys's are big and not always easy to drive. On the freeway they can be death traps. Now, I'll let you drive back from the dance to Whitney’s house but to Hollywood. Ummmm, I don't think so. You're just going to have to deal with it. Blagh... Jen and I just had a talk out about Backwards and people are trying to join her group too. When will the madness stop? People of La Canada; I exhort you to take responsibility upon yourselves and plan a night so organized and original that the world has not seen a likeness of. And through this preparation you will come to the realization that you too can be creative. The heavens are the limits from there! Wow, I'm so weird. For the sake of my reputation (yes, I do have a fairly normal person's reputation) I'm going to bring this entry to a close. I'll be seeing most of you tonight. XOXOXO

Sunday, March 17, 2002 I'm a little worried right now. My health seems to be getting worse and worse as the day goes on. If I get sick now Mrs. Rios will kill me. I'm sucking on some Cold-eeze right now and they taste like crap. Yuck!.. Well I've had a very busy past few days. On Thursday I went with Andrea (my cousin) to Knott's Berry Farm and we had a great day. The park was almost empty and there were no lines. The only down part of the day was loosing Twenty dollars and my cell phone at the park. Lucky I called them on Friday and they found my phone. Those nice people are going to mail it to me for free. They didn't find my money but I never really had that much faith in humanity. Let's see...Friday we threw Jessica a surprise party and it's the first time I've ever seen someone really surprised that we were there. Later on that night we (Rachel, Kelly, Jen, Whitney & I) went up to Derek’s and we danced with the Argentineans some more. All the girls had a really great time. Then came Saturday. The hell of my weekend. Nine hours of, "Yes, let me have this happy smile on my face while I try to put you in a bed without killing you first". What A Tan is especially busy right now with backwards coming up. All of L.C. turned up to tan and I love it how everyone says, "Oh, you are so lucky! You get to tan any time you want". But I actually don't really like tanning in a bed. There's something unnatural about it. I will however argue to the death that a tanning bed is just as or even safer than outdoor tanning. So I worked from 9-6. Bad times. Then after that me, Whitney, Jen, Kris and Carina went out sign searching. We all crammed into this tiny car and drove around Pasadena and Glendale looking for street signs that said Corona and our names. Were going to go back sometime and steal them when we have the right tools. After that we went up to my house and Jimmy and Brent joined us. Apparently Patricija was have a party at her house with spirited drinks and plants to inhale so Jimmy came over to hang out with us sober people. At least the few that are left. It was great thought because Jen was really worried about the girls drinking and whether or not they were smoking or not but I didn't really care very much. When the girls do that kind of stuff they are different people and I don’t really know the people that they are. I'm not saying that the stop being my friends when they drink. It's just that they become the kind of people I don’t want to be friends with. Now listen. I don’t want people coming up to me tomorrow wanting to talk about my feelings towards drinking. I'm not mad. I don’t get mad about stupid stuff like people's individual decision. It really affects me only a fraction of what you're doing to yourself. Whatever, I'm just going to get off the drinking thing. So we were chillin at my house and Jimmy kept saying, "It feels so good to be with you guys". Poor Jimmy. Then The Argentinean guys came over and I took them up on the golf course to go buggy boarding. If any of you have never experienced buggy boarding on a golf course, you're missing out. The guys didn't really know how to do it so instead of going one at a time they all piled on and slid down together. More often that not they would end up falling down into this drain pit. It was so funny cause when these started to fall down into the pit they would yell, "IYeEEEE" and then they would all tumble down the hill. Now we come to my predicament. The whole Argentinean group has taken it upon themselves to try to get Robert and I together. They left us alone on the tee off and they all sat down at the bottom singing Spanish love song to us. Then Robert pulled the whole,” Are your hands cold, let me rub them" thing and that kinda sent me into a WAIT, HOLD ON A SECOND mode. Roberts nice and all but I really don’t think that I want something like that. I just met him and right now I just want to chill and get to know everyone. I hate the fact that I've already been labeled ROBERT INTREST. So that was my last night that ended with Robert asking me for my number. They want to take me to an Argentinean dance club tonight. I don’t know about that. So that was my weekend and I look forward to next week where we are going to be making some beautiful music. Have a good one Reeeeeeee's.

Wednesday, March 13, 2002 How can I begin to express the feelings that I had today. They varied between joy, passion, disappointment, and exhaustion. I wouldn't trade them for the world. I feel as if a whole new avenue of music has been opened up to me. Oh how I wish that I could have a fraction of the devotion that Eric has. The frustrating part of the day was when Eric pleaded for more passions from the sopranos and I was trying so hard to please him but I just wasn't communicating the emotion that the section demanded. Every part of me strove to ignite the notes to the point of lustful fire (goodness knows Eric could have lit it for me), but I just found it so difficult. Partly because Trisha choose that moment to loose focus and crack a joke with Liz (both of whom should have been hanging on his every word). We concluded our practice by singing With A Lilly in the echo chamber. Ahhh sweet passionate music, filled with fire and water. I wish I could take the song and wrap it around me as if it were a soft quilt. A quilt that depicted scenes of wild horses chased by a helicopter, deep reflections that would burn a soul to vulnerability, and a scene filled with such a pure physical lust that it left one breathless. That, to me, is With A Lilly. A simple concept that only a virgin naive individual, like myself, could comprehend. The absolute highlight of my day was going up to thank Eric and refusing his hand to ask for an embrace instead. What a wonderful guy! It was funny sitting next to Andrew knowing that Eric probably did the same thing for him as Eric did for me. A very interesting stepping-stone towards my progression as an open-minded human being. Thank you for giving me that My Favorite Jew (MFJ). Anyway, Andreas here and she and I are going to Six Flagstomorrow so you'll all be deprived of my presence at school. Like that's a change. So everyone have a good one and I'll see you on Friday. Love you all!

Tuesday, March 12, 2002 Picture this. Schools out, the sun is shinning and I have two hours free to myself. My options: watch TV, sleep or sit on my hammock and read my book. What would you choose? Good choice. I however sat on my hammock outside, in the sun, drinking water and just relaxing. Its no wonder my day was good. So many factors make my day enjoyable. Having Mrs. Rios tell me that she was proud of me and that I proved her wrong, hugging all the boys that give me so much pleasure (even if Greg is a little enthusiastic at times) and coming from a choir rehearsal completely exhausted but devoted none the less. Things are going good right now and I wonder what I have done to deserve such a wonderful life. There are so many things I'm looking forward to. Eric tomorrow, Chamber Singer sleepover, Backwards and of course CS tour. I really hope nobody does anything stupid up there. I wish there wouldn't be any alcohol or drugs. It makes me so sad to think that people have to resort to a substance to get the self-esteem they think they need. Oh well, I am merely a lowly Mormon trying to force my standards on others. Oh two things fun that happened last night. Derek called my cell phone to make sure I had made it back all right and he hinted that the Argentinean guy Robert was interested in me. He asked if I thought something was there but what do you say to that. Roberts form Argentinean and he can't even speak English that well. Hmmmmm we'll see what happens. The second fun thing of the night was going to see Beauty and the Beast on the Imax screen on City walk. Disney movies always leave me with a lonely aching heart. I really relate with Bell on the whole love for reading. I think that and the Little Mermaid are the two movies my husband will have to love or the weddings off. Ha. Oooo, Andrea should be here any minute. She's my cousin from Arizona and I love her dearly. So I think I'll bring this entry to a close with a quote. Good friends fill your heart when you pour it out-Ryan Facer

Sunday, March 10, 2002 I'm pretty sure that the most satisfying thing is to sing in the shower at the top of my lungs and know that no one can do a darn thing about it. I got through the entire With a Lilly and I actually remembered all the words. So last week was a little dry. Whitney wasn't in Govt. and my boys weren’t in choir. I missed them a lot. But this week is going to be full of exiting things I hope. Only a week till Eric comes. I hope everyone know the music by Wed. If the don't...smack down...HaHaHa. This weekend was really quite interesting. Friday I babysat and on Sat I had my church auction that I danced at. The fun however didn't start till around 11 when we met up with my friend Derek. He had this whole group of boys that were from Argentina I had the best time with them. They were so different and so sweet. Half of them couldn't speak English and that made it even better. They would say, "Mi English iz diz big (little sign) but my heart iz diz big (arms length). Ask me to do it in person and its much more funny. So my curfew is 12:30 but I still wanted to hang out with them. They were going over to Derek's house and I wanted to go with them. What else could I do except sneak out of the house. (Gasp). I know, a Mormon being risky. Who would have thought? I must confess that as I was driving away I was having second thoughts. After all I didn't really even know Derek that well. But I'm glad that I went cause I had the best time. They said they were going to watch a movie but instead the put on Argentinean music and began dancing. You think our dancing is fun. Ha! I was twirled; cuddled and spun so many times I thought I was going to be sick. This one guy named Robert (you pronounce it RRRRRRaburt) is my age and I had so much fun dancing with him. The best part about the night was the Argentinean goodbyes. You do this cheek kiss thing. We need to implement that in our school. So after dancing and learning some Spanish words I came home at 4 and got up for church the next day. All without being caught. Good Times. Dinner time. G2G.

Tuesday, March 5, 2002 In every heart there is a room, a sanctuary safe and strong. To heal the wounds from lovers past, until a new one comes along. I spoke to you in cautious tones; you answered me with no pretense. And still I feel I said too much. My silence is my self-defense. And every time I’ve held a rose it seems I only felt the thorns. And so it goes and so it goes, and so will you soon I suppose. But if my silence made you leave, than that would be my worst mistake. So I will share this room with you. And you can have this heart to break. And this is why my eyes are closed, it’s just as well for all I’ve seen. And so it goes, and so it goes, and you’re the only one who knows. So I would choose to be with you. That’s if the choice were mine to make. But you can make decisions too. And you can have this heart to break. And so it goes and so it goes. And you’re the only one who knows. -Billy Joel

Monday, March 4, 2002 This week has taken the feeling of a quick and easy week. I sure hope it turns out that way cause last week was a never-ending nightmare. Now that I look back on my weekend a lot happened. The thing with Brent Friday night, asking Martin on Sat night, Mother daughter brunch, Singing practice, dance practice and talking to Brent on Sat night about Fri night. Urgh, no wonder last week never seemed to end. I feel that I have to be honest in my blog and say what’s really going on in my head right now. There's a guy named Brent for Y&G and he and I always got along really well. He was with me really late on Friday. The next thing I knew he was rubbing my hand (I was cold) and he was real close to me and I just went for it. I don’t know what I was thinking. Sure he wanted it but once again- DID I DO IT FOR ME OR HIM. I wasn’t even sure if I like him or not but I hate that strange silence where you know he's not going to do it and if you know anything about me I hate just waiting when I think something should happen. Well kiss was actually really nice but afterward when I was trying to go to bed I didn't know whether that was a good idea or not. I realize this entry is really personal so if my word make you uncomfortable, tough. This is my daily journal and I'm gonna write in it. So me in relationships. Usually not the most honest or stable. The guy will ask, "Are you OK with whatever"? and I'll answer with whatever is the easiest. Confrontation is not my strongest point. So Brent and I talked on Sat and we decided that we're much better just hanging out and we should be pals. A huge relief off my back. So that was a fraction of my weekend and by the end I learned that I'm much more braver than I ever thought I could be. So once again I'm sorry if I offended anyone with my straightforwardness but if anyone were to ask me about any of this I would answer as quickly and honestly as I have in this blog. Kudos to you all.-------------PS. props to you Martin/Andrew, great answer. A little strange but creative. Mormon Vixen?

Saturday, March 2, 2002 Ok... So I did something last night that I'm not sure whether it was a good idea or not. I might have given someone the wrong impression of my feelings toward him. Agrh!!! Sigh, I can’t really focus on anything else with this all going on. My day was really jam-packed. This morning before my church mom and daughter brunch my mom and dad came in and gave me a really beautiful ring for graduation. It's white gold with a pearl in the middle with two blue stones on either side. I love it. Then I went over to Islands real fast to wish my friend a happy birthday. Then choir. Soraya and I got along really good today and this one time Mrs. Rios brought us in at a wrong time and Soraya and I totally got it right. YES! LaTeDa! Hey Martin...If your reading this then you probably already know that I've asked you to Backwards. I hope you can go with me. Putting that whole book together took like 2 hour so cherish it. I wonder if the star thing worked out. Your mom was really amused with my whole asking thing. We'll have good times. Anyway, I just don’t know how to deal with my problem. I should just call him up. Sigh

Friday, March 1, 2002 Hi my name is Annie. And this is my blog. From now on I write what I want, when I want and if this pisses anyone off, stop reading. I have 3 months left of school and frankly I don’t care anymore. Some may ask, "why this new feeling of honesty"? I went onto the Internet today...very very rare, and I had put Martin on my buddies list (I'm not sure why) and he was on. I asked my sister how to talk to him and then WOW! I was talking to him. It’s that easy. We had a very interesting conversation. I said a lot of things I always wanted to. It was scary because I could say things without confronting anyone but at the same time they would find out how I really feel. In the past I would be so desperate for boy to like that I would tell them whatever it was they wanted to hear. So the way people knew me wasn't me at all. Sadly enough I still do things for other people to try to get people to like me but it’s not so much out of desperation as it is out of love for others. But talking to martin enabled me to realize that its ok for me to feel the way I feel. I should be excited to be the person that I am and I should start developing myself for me. After all, I'm the one who has to live with me the longest. I better get to the point where I'm comfortable with myself. So martin, if you’re reading this; thanks for talking to me.

Sunday, February 24, 2002 Ahhhhh! My body is burnt and I have nothing to do today. What a wonderful feeling. This weekend was great. At first I didn’t think it was going to be fun because I was missing the bonfire on Friday but then I realized that I was exactly where I wanted to be. In my church we have this thing called missionary weekend. The whole stake (LCF, LC, Verdugo...) get together and we go out with the real missionaries and knock on doors. Now some of you are probably thinking, "oh, poor Annie, she has to spend her Sat doing that" but actually its a really good way to find out what you believe in. I did Missionary weekend last year but sadly I couldn't do it this year. I did go to the sleepover and that was so much fun. All of us Laurel (16-18) girls sleep over at the Debours house. It was me, Kelly, Whitney Anderson, Whitney Townsend, Melody, Jenny B and Caroline. Around midnight Kelly went out to her car to go get something and she came back saying that the boys had messed up our cars. The 16-18 boys were staying over at the Hanson’s. They had put toilet paper around our cars and had written stuff in soap. It actually was a very poor job but nevertheless we formed instant retaliation. Armed with plastic wrap, toilet paper, starbursts, shoe polish and pads, we headed to the Hanson’s with 7 girls in one car. On the way we passed a cop and because it was 1 and were breaking curfew we tried to hide down in the back seat. We finally made it to the Hanson’s and began to unpack the weapons when Jenny yelled out "Cop"! We all jumped behind the car and there ended up being a huge doggie pile behind her car. The cop drove by real slowly and went down the street and pulled a U turn. At this point Whitney A. jumps up and starts running for the bushes. Everyone yells, "Whitney, you don’t run from the cops!” By that time the cop is driving up and we notice that the toilet paper had been forgotten and scattered in the rush to get away and it was lying out next to the car. The cop stops and sits in his car for a few minutes. I imagine he was cherishing the moment. Seven girls hiding behind a car with toilet paper all over the ground. A funny scene I'm sure. He finally get out of his car and he asks what we are doing out at this time of night. The Guy was Hispanic so we thought it best that Jenny handle the situation. She jumps up and explains that that we were first attacked and we needed only to get the boys cars, not anyone’s house. The cop yielded and let us continues with our promise of no destruction. We finally got to our work and within a half a hour we had Matt Facer and Christian Hanson’s cars wrapped in plastic and paper. We also licked starbursts and stuck them to the windows and we stuck pads to the windows. As a final touch we wrote all over there cars with shoe polish and that stuff never comes off. Ahhhh, the perfect revenge. I have to be at church soon so I'll make sat wrap up really quick. I went to the beach with Missy, Jess, Patrijia, Jen and Elizabeth (hence the burnt body). I accidentally fell asleep on the beach and now my back is all red. After that I went to the officer debrief at Sean’s beach house. That was so much fun and I got to hang out with Sawyer, Sage and Timmy. They are the coolest advisors I have ever met. I'm going to miss them the most out of the whole Y&G program. After the beach house we all went back to LC and everyone went to see Queen of the Damned. I on the other hand went home and got into my PJ's. Of course Kris calls me % minutes later and we end up going around taking pictures of the city. We went up the Crest (its not what you’re thinking), to the rose bowl and to the place where his senior prom was happening. We had some really good conversations and we decided that a real friend is someone who you can be completely silent with and feel 100% at ease. Good Times1 that was my week and I have exactly 20 min to get ready for church. Ha!

Thursday, February 21, 2002 Ahahaha! I'm so nutz. It's 12o'clock in the morning and I'm writing in my blog. I really should go to sleep but Missy told me that she wrote in her blog and I logged on to read it. Ah! Shock and Bewilderment! Missy and Dan might break up and she's afraid I'll get with him. NO NO No! How can she think that? I learned my lesson after the Caleb pick up. It's Ok though... I just called her on her cell phone (yes I know it's midnight) and I woke her up to tell her I would never do that to her. I hope she believes me. I felt kind of bad cause I woke her up and I know how tough it is for her to fall asleep. So that’s done with. Ummmm..... today was actually not that bad of a day. Chamber Singers had to be one of the funniest today. The boys that sit in back of me---Martin, Greg, and Caleb--- were making up raps about me. Greg said, "I met her just the other day" and Caleb said "One look at her made me turn Gay" or something like that. It was honestly one of the funniest things ever because we were supposed to be all serious with the music. Martin was being really nice to me today. It was weird though cause I couldn't figure out if he was serious or not. If he was than that was real nice. Lord knows Caleb made up for any nice comments today. The "I have balls but Anna chewed off his" was below the belt. Out of control. Blah... I spent 5 hours on a Y&G project. We fundraised 100 dollars and I spent it on wife beaters for the delegation with VHY on the front and 02 on the back. It looks pretty good. I’m getting tired so I'm going to end this fun filled hour with yours truly-Annie Kelley

Tuesday, February 19, 2002 Hello everyone! Did you miss me? I'm going to make the assumption that you all had fine weekends and I'll go read all your blogs after this just to make sure. It would be really difficult to describe to you even a fraction of what I experienced up in Sacramento. It would be like me trying to describe the feeling I gets when the chamber singers sing a beautiful piece of music. I just can’t put it into words. One cool thing that happened was standing in front of 100 people and telling them why we should keep the death sentence and that people who kill others should die once for themselves and whoever else they killed. In the case of some, one hundred times over. Needless to say some thought me hypocritical and I made many enemies that day. Wow, I love freedom of speech! Another highlight was sending love notes to random guys with missy and I signing them Pez and Bink. We finally reveled ourselves on the last day and even made some friends. Sitting in the Assembly Halls in the capitol for 20+ hours for a week got a little boring. The week went from boring to great to frustrating and then it was over. It kind of sucked that I had to be an officer my first and last time in Sac cause I had to be responsible. I ended up not having fun most of the time and I'm glad the stressful part of it was over. The last night we ran elections and Kris (who lost the governor election) was elected president of CCY. I think he will find that more rewarding than any governor position. Overall however, I am still in denial that Youth and Government is over. So many friendships and wonderful memories are attached to it. It might work for the YMCA day camp over the summer with Ryan and I think Martin. Sawyer said he would get me a job. It’s a tough decision between Zoo Camp and the Y thing cause Zoo Camp pays a lot more but Sawyer said the Y thing is lots more fun. Oh I don’t know. So Valentines Day came and went without someone to share it with. Actually that’s not true. I was with 2200 teenagers. Still I felt strangely alone. We should change Feb 14 to an independence day for singles and a love day for couples. That suits me much better. I just finished Aladdin so forgive me if I am a little bitter. Disney does that to me. Argh... Y&G is over. I have to get a job now. Sigh. Oh yeah, I just found out something weird that happened to my aunt. I came back from Sac yesterday to find my mom and three sisters gone. My dad had forgotten to tell me that they were in Arizona with my relatives. Apparently my Aunt who just had a baby was found in the baby’s room completely catatonic. In other words she was in a conscious comma. For those of you who know Andrea, it was her mom. She suffers from depression and that pregnancy depression. She’s in the hospital right now and my dad says that yesterday she woke up not knowing why she was there. The doctors think she'll be fine. Thank goodness. I have to go start my laundry now so I'll see you all tomorrow. Love to all!

Wednesday, February 13, 2002 See Andrew, I can be responsible and write in my blog. Never compare my blog to missy's ever again. Let's see...this week has been all sorts of different emotions. Excitement for Sacramento, Melt in your mouth singing in choir, stressed out from Y&G responsibilities and still a little frustration in singing. Choirs tough because I know she wants the sopranos to be louder but she also doesn't want to her any individual voices. Sectionals actually weren’t that bad today. Linda is almost always unbearable but today she kept her comments in and just played the piano like she's supposed to. Cloudburst was beautiful. I think the practice last night really helped. We changed formation in choir and I'm between Ross and Andrew. I love the Big Beautiful Bass sound surrounding me. Wonderful! And the radon funny comments that Andrew makes are great. Something I never noticed before, David has the most distinctive tenor voice ever. It’s such a change to hear how the part works with the whole piece. Most of our songs are tenor based and it sounds great. Hey, I leave for Sac in a half an hour. Ya'll won’t hear from me for al least a week so I hope this entire will hold you over till then. Agh..Nervousnsee and an excited apprehension. Maybe Valentine’s won’t be as lonely this year. Just for tomorrow I think that all people that have a significant other should be struck down and be forced to live a life of solitude. Or maybe I should stop being so bitter and learn to love life as it is. Nah, die you all....HaHaHa. See Andrew, I told you I am in a weird mood today. Oh well, Love you all!!!